the journal of the pharmacist m. kakuta

MOVED!

2007-03-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

here:

http://kjerkemartijn.blogspot.com

thanks for all those who've been following the sporadic postings of mine here. have moved, and though i do not expect you to follow me, it's all right with me if you do. :D once again, thank you everybody! ^_^

A NEW POST

2007-02-09T09:44:00.000+08:00

Sometimes me think what is love, and then me think love is what last cookie is for. Me give up the last cookie for you.- Cookie Monster

Oh, nice. It's been a long time since I posted here. Sorry, sorry. T_T

But anyway, just when you thought I was gone for good, here I am! ^__^ and guess what,

I HAVE A JOB ALREADY!!!!! ^_____^

so there. this post is short, but heeheehee. details next time, now. ^__^

OKAY, JAMJAMJAM

2006-12-20T08:44:00.000+08:00

1. what really pushed you to shift out of journ?
It's not that I shifted out of Journ of my own free will. Let me tell you a story: The first day of my Journ 102 class, Ma'm Simbulan told us "Don't come to me at the end of the sem asking me to... (do something) to your grade, saying you're on probation... Maybe this course is not for you." The first time I saw myself on probation (J101) I felt, "Maybe this isn't for me." The second time I saw myself on probation (and henceforth kicked out), I knew I was shown the way out. Add to that that I don't really like to edit what I write. :D
2. which do you like better: listening to 80s music or to fergie's london bridge? hahaha
80s anytime, chum! They for me are enduring: Air Supply, REO Speedwagon, The Carpenters, ABBA, Queen, Blur, Ace of Bass, Milli Vanilli even, haha. Okay, I know some of them may not be 80s, but I consider them so for ease of categorization.
3. are you happy with your current course, lingguistics? Do you feel that it's really the one for you?
Um, you see, I have realized over half a year ago that Linguistics isn't for me. I have realized I'm not into fieldwork. The fields that I see myself in the future are either Statistics or Economics. :D
4. what are your plans after college?
I see myself taking both those courses, and possibly an MA in Econ. After I college I see myself as an actuary, haha.
5. (staple)Why do people still insist on falling in love despite knowing it's gonna fail and wreak havoc on their miserable lives ANYWAY?
I can't possibly tell. I haven't been in love. At least not yet. But I have a theory. There is a mild case of masochism in each and every one of us, and so...

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The Rules:

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."

2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.

3. You will update your journal with the answers to the questions.

4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.

5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

FROM ENGRISH.COM

2006-12-13T14:58:00.000+08:00

Ito ang favorite kong Japanese painapple candy haha. :P

AND THEY SAY IT'S CHRISTMAS

2006-12-13T14:36:00.000+08:00

Well, what do you think of the new layout? I had a poster of the picture on the left during my high school days, back when I was so infatuated with Card Captor Sakura. Brings back memories.

[song on my mind] -- At Your Side (acoustic) by The Corrs. Has a christmasy feel to it.

Well, I just found out (after four agonizing hours of figuring it out) how to use Blogskins.com skins on my Blogger Beta. All you had to do was to REVERT BACK TO THE OLD LAYOUT. And stupid me was agonizing for four hours on how to translate html to xml(which the blogger beta used, not html).

Well, that's that for now. Am gonna go back to regular blogging in a week's time. See you all! :D

SURVEY HAHA

2006-11-15T18:20:00.000+08:00

Walang magawa e...

Paano kung...

nalaman mong anak ka sa labas?
> me nalaman akong mas matindi pa jan haha. :D

nsa bus/lrt/mrt ka at siksikan sabay a person of
the opposite sex rubs a private part on you?
> ang babae hindi naman masyado nahahalata kapag private part na e...

a close friend ay biglang nagpropose sayo?
> syet, ang mga close friends ko? :D nagpapatawa ka ba?

ang aso ng syota mo ay nakagat ka at nalaman
mong nde injected ng anti rabies?
> ala pa akong syota, hehe

may napulot kang cellphone tapos sa ex pala ng
syota mo?
> ala pa nga akong syota, e....

may pari kang kapitbahay at nakita mong nag uwi
ng pokpok?
> hell, join in the fun! threesome! :P

kasama mo ang syota mo nang may magbigay sa
kanya ng flowers/gift?
> ala pa nga akong syota e... bakit ba ang kulit mo?

nasa classroom ka ng may biglang umutot pero
sayo nagtinginan lahat?
> "well try to deconstruct THAT!"

may nangaroling sa bahay nyo pero may mga suot
na alahas at may bodyguard?
> oh shet. haha

prof mo sa theology ay nakita mo sa isang
gaybar/nightclub?
> walang theology subject ang UP, thank you very much

isang gurang ay nagoffer sayo ng malaking halaga
for just one night out?
> depende kung gaano kalaki, haha

nakita mo ang sarili mo sa internet na inedit ang
mukha at nilagay sa isang katawang hubad?
> DATU!!!!!!!!!

may stalker kang bi at sineseduce ka?
> am open to that, haha

nilapitan ka ng holdaper pero payatot inuubo at
mukhang malnourished?
> haha syet, para saan pa't nag-aikido ako? :D

nalaman mo sa friend ng crush mo na may
pagnanasa ang crush mo sayo?
> HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ang bago mong syota ay napag alaman mong
buntis/nakabuntis a couple of moths back bago pa
naging kayo?
> let's see...

may nag hack ng friendster account mo at ginawa
itong katawatawa?
> magsign-up ng panibago. *laugh dies down a little*

nagyoyosi ka ng biglang may lumapit na madre at
naki puff?
> hindi ako nagyoyosi e. pero kung nagyoyosi ako RAKenROLL!!!

bibili ka ng damit sa mall at pagdating mo sa
counter ay nakita mo kaaway mo at pareho kayo
ng binili?
> isang malutong na SHIT! tapos uppercut, haha

isang artist na idolo mo ay lasing at kumatok sa
bahay nyo para makituloy?
> the iron is hot. haha

nanonood ka ng tv ng biglang lumabas si sadako
for real?
> UY SIS! TAGAL NA NUNG NILAGLAG KA NI DADDY SA BALON, AH! MUSZTA NA?

may natanggap kang toy bilang regalo sa
pasko?
> depende. kung adult toy yan, bakit hindi? haha... :D

nasa coffee shop ka ng may lumapit at nagpa
autograph dahil inakalang celebrity ka?
> OMGA do I look like Gary freaking Lising?!?!

ginagago ka lng ng survey na to?
> hahaha kanina pa. :D

WITHOUT YOUR LOVE

2006-08-11T10:00:00.000+08:00

ROGER DALTREY

You can show me the way
Give me a sunny day
But what does it mean
Without your love

And if I could travel far
If I could touch the stars
Where would I be
Without your love

Whenever I get to feeling
Down and out
I think about what you said
And then I'd give out

And if I could fly away
If I could sail today
Where would I go
Without your love

You can show me the way
And give me a sunny day
But what does it mean
Without your love

And if I could travel far
If I could touch the stars
Where would I be
Without your love

And if I ever wonder away
Too far
You'd come looking for me with
Open arms

I could forget my home
Be like a rolling stone
But who would I be
Without your love

And what does it mean
Without your love
Where would I be?

FAR AND FEW IN BETWEEN

2006-08-11T09:34:00.000+08:00

Am back, but am not doing this very often. I am nearing twenty now, and chances are I'm no teenager anymore. Well you know the drill. Twenty is no time to be hanging around doing something very much unproductive. I've gotta find something that will bring in at least some, and fast. So...

P.S. I'm giving you a chestnut, dear: I may be moving to another blog on my dashboard. Thank you very much. Ü

STATUS REPORT

2006-07-20T11:44:00.000+08:00

I am still reeling from the effects of the declaration of Lourds of the non-major status of me. But am back on track, having 15 units like I never had anything bad happen to me.

I received the sigsheets of them orgs I am applying for this semester, and am vowing to NOT neglect my studies while applying for orgs. Not that I neglected my studies in the previous semesters, though; I am just cautious since this semester I am applying for more than one org.

Till here for now. Will write as soon as I have the time AND the confidence in myself again.

FROM A FORMER CRUSH'S FRIENDSTER BULLETIN POST

2006-06-28T12:55:00.000+08:00

1. night or day?
-night
2. sunrise or sunset?
-sunset
3. sneakers or flipflops?
-sneakers (pero kung havaianas...;P)
4. eyeglass or sunglass?
-you've seen me
5. ballpen or pencil?
-pencil, even though
6. oral or written?
-written
7. plain or printed?
-plain
8. DV or Greenhills?
-DV
9. straight or wavy?
-straight
10. raw or cooked?
-some like it hot
11. mermaid or fairy?
-fairy
12. automatic or manual?
-manual
13. chemistry or physics?
-chem
14. noticed or unnoticed?
-unnoticed
15. ordinary or extra ordinary?
-extraordinary
16. uphill or downhill?
-downhill
17. fried or grilled?
-fried
18. hot or cold?
-cold
19. black or white?
-black
20. balloon: on a stick or on a string?
-string
21. thin crust or thick crust?
-thin
22. fair or dark?
-fair
23. Il Mare or Lake House?
-Korean films!
24. drive or commute?
-commute
25. sun or moon?
-moon
26. heinz or del monte?
-heinz
27. let's go or nonstop?
-nonstop
28. sunny side up or scrambled?
-sunny
29. hand sewn or sewing machine?
-hand sewn
30. rainy days or sunny days?
-HATE RAIN!
31. digicam or SLR?
-SLR! but a DSLR would be very nice indeed
32. shoulder bag or sling bag?
-n/a
33. water or soda?
-water
34. yakult or chamito?
-yakult
35. rock climbing or wall climbing?
-either

114 PROJPROP BACKUP

2006-06-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

Christian Earl V. Angeles
Joanna Chaida M. Arawiran
Lester M. Cajegas
Rizza Andrea A. Corpuz
Masakatsu G. Kakuta
Recah Moselle O. Tumanguil
Jesse B. Umayam
Group ________________
Stat 114 TFX
Project Proposal

The Statistics Library Utility Survey

The Statistics Library Utility Survey (SLUS) will, with consent of supervising Stat 114 instructor Prof. Josefina V. Almeda, be conducted by Group _________________ of Stat 114 TFX, the member of which are above-mentioned. The overall objective of SLUS is to provide an overview of the utility function of the School of Statistics Library (from hereon referred to as simply 'library') as assessed by the said School's studentry. It further aims to:
1.measure the value of the utility of the library as perceived by its primary constituent users, the undegraduate students of the School of Statistics;
2.determine its positive qualities that cater to its users, and the negative qualities that hinder them from fully utilizing the various facilites and sections of the library;
3.assess the extent of usage of BS (Statistics) librarygoers in their Statistics courses; and
4.determine what, in the opinion of the students, can be done to improve the library.
Specifically, the objectives of the SLUS are the following:
1.To determine the level of visibility of the library as perceived by Statistics students;
2.To estimate the number of hours spent in the library by students relative to their Statistics subjects;
3.To quantify the convenience and ease of use of library facilities ;
4.To determine the level of assistance provided by the library staff;
5.To estimate the number of books and other library materials taken out by Statistics students;
6.To estimate the frequency by which students use the library;
7.To ascertain the usefulness of library facilities to its primary constituent users; and
8.To determine the positive characteristics of the library and recommend measures to provide for the inconveniences faced by the Statistics studentry.

INTP

2006-06-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

Okay, now here is something really weird. Lourdes Portus, in accordance with my rehabilitation in the College as a vagrant non-major, sent me to the Office of Counseling and Guidance(OCG). Now they made me take a version of the Myers-Briggs standardized exam, and I came out as INTP. A few months ago I took an internet test (as with anything in the internet, I dunno if it's reliable, of course),something like Jung-Myers-Briggs, and I came up with ISFP. But I disregard the previous result since I more rely on standardized clinical results, thank you very much. And here is what I've found in the Internet about the INTP type:

According to Joe Butt

INTPs are pensive, analytical folks. They may venture so deeply into thought as to seem detached, and often actually are oblivious to the world around them.

Precise about their descriptions, INTPs will often correct others (or be sorely tempted to) if the shade of meaning is a bit off. While annoying to the less concise, this fine discrimination ability gives INTPs so inclined a natural advantage as, for example, grammarians and linguists.

INTPs are relatively easy-going and amenable to most anything until their principles are violated, about which they may become outspoken and inflexible. They prefer to return, however, to a reserved albeit benign ambiance, not wishing to make spectacles of themselves.

A major concern for INTPs is the haunting sense of impending failure. They spend considerable time second-guessing themselves. The open-endedness (from Perceiving) conjoined with the need for competence (NT) is expressed in a sense that one's conclusion may well be met by an equally plausible alternative solution, and that, after all, one may very well have overlooked some critical bit of data. An INTP arguing a point may very well be trying to convince himself as much as his opposition. In this way INTPs are markedly different from INTJs, who are much more confident in their competence and willing to act on their convictions.

Mathematics is a system where many INTPs love to play, similarly languages, computer systems--potentially any complex system. INTPs thrive on systems. Understanding, exploring, mastering, and manipulating systems can overtake the INTP's conscious thought. This fascination for logical wholes and their inner workings is often expressed in a detachment from the environment, a concentration where time is forgotten and extraneous stimuli are held at bay. Accomplishing a task or goal with this knowledge is secondary.

INTPs and Logic -- One of the tipoffs that a person is an INTP is her obsession with logical correctness. Errors are not often due to poor logic -- apparent faux pas in reasoning are usually a result of overlooking details or of incorrect context.

Games NTs seem to especially enjoy include Risk, Bridge, Stratego, Chess, Go, and word games of all sorts. (I have an ENTP friend that loves Boggle and its variations. We've been known to sit in public places and pick a word off a menu or mayonnaise jar to see who can make the most words from its letters on a napkin in two minutes.) The INTP mailing list has enjoyed a round of Metaphore, virtual volleyball, and a few 'finish the series' brain teasers.

According to BSM Consulting

As an INTP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INTPs live in the world of theoretical possibilities. They see everything in terms of how it could be improved, or what it could be turned into. They live primarily inside their own minds, having the ability to analyze difficult problems, identify patterns, and come up with logical explanations. They seek clarity in everything, and are therefore driven to build knowledge. They are the "absent-minded professors", who highly value intelligence and the ability to apply logic to theories to find solutions. They typically are so strongly driven to turn problems into logical explanations, that they live much of their lives within their own heads, and may not place as much importance or value on the external world. Their natural drive to turn theories into concrete understanding may turn into a feeling of personal responsibility to solve theoretical problems, and help society move towards a higher understanding.

INTPs value knowledge above all else. Their minds are constantly working to generate new theories, or to prove or disprove existing theories. They approach problems and theories with enthusiasm and skepticism, ignoring existing rules and opinions and defining their own approach to the resolution. They seek patterns and logical explanations for anything that interests them. They're usually extremely bright, and able to be objectively critical in their analysis. They love new ideas, and become very excited over abstractions and theories. They love to discuss these concepts with others. They may seem "dreamy" and distant to others, because they spend a lot of time inside their minds musing over theories. They hate to work on routine things - they would much prefer to build complex theoretical solutions, and leave the implementation of the system to others. They are intensely interested in theory, and will put forth tremendous amounts of time and energy into finding a solution to a problem with has piqued their interest.

INTPs do not like to lead or control people. They're very tolerant and flexible in most situations, unless one of their firmly held beliefs has been violated or challenged, in which case they may take a very rigid stance. The INTP is likely to be very shy when it comes to meeting new people. On the other hand, the INTP is very self-confident and gregarious around people they know well, or when discussing theories which they fully understand.

The INTP has no understanding or value for decisions made on the basis of personal subjectivity or feelings. They strive constantly to achieve logical conclusions to problems, and don't understand the importance or relevance of applying subjective emotional considerations to decisions. For this reason, INTPs are usually not in-tune with how people are feeling, and are not naturally well-equiped to meet the emotional needs of others.

The INTP may have a problem with self-aggrandizement and social rebellion, which will interfere with their creative potential. Since their Feeling side is their least developed trait, the INTP may have difficulty giving the warmth and support that is sometimes necessary in intimate relationships. If the INTP doesn't realize the value of attending to other people's feelings, he or she may become overly critical and sarcastic with others. If the INTP is not able to find a place for themself which supports the use of their strongest abilities, they may become generally negative and cynical. If the INTP has not developed their Sensing side sufficiently, they may become unaware of their environment, and exhibit weakness in performing maintenance-type tasks, such as bill-paying and dressing appropriately.

For the INTP, it is extremely important that ideas and facts are expressed correctly and succinctly. They are likely to express themselves in what they believe to be absolute truths. Sometimes, their well thought-out understanding of an idea is not easily understandable by others, but the INTP is not naturally likely to tailor the truth so as to explain it in an understandable way to others. The INTP may be prone to abandoning a project once they have figured it out, moving on to the next thing. It's important that the INTP place importance on expressing their developed theories in understandable ways. In the end, an amazing discovery means nothing if you are the only person who understands it.

The INTP is usually very independent, unconventional, and original. They are not likely to place much value on traditional goals such as popularity and security. They usually have complex characters, and may tend to be restless and temperamental. They are strongly ingenious, and have unconventional thought patterns which allows them to analyze ideas in new ways. Consequently, a lot of scientific breakthroughs in the world have been made by the INTP.

The INTP is at his best when he can work on his theories independently. When given an environment which supports his creative genius and possible eccentricity, the INTP can accomplish truly remarkable things. These are the pioneers of new thoughts in our society.

CAREERS FOR INTP PERSONALITY TYPES

Whether you're a young adult trying to find your place in the world, or a not-so-young adult trying to find out if you're moving along the right path, it's important to understand yourself and the personality traits which will impact your likeliness to succeed or fail at various careers. It's equally important to understand what is really important to you. When armed with an understanding of your strengths and weaknesses, and an awareness of what you truly value, you are in an excellent position to pick a career which you will find rewarding.

INTPs generally have the following traits:

Love theory and abstract ideas
Truth Seekers - they want to understand things by analyzing underlying principles and structures
Value knowledge and competence above all else
Have very high standards for performance, which they apply to themselves
Independent and original, possibly eccentric
Work best alone, and value autonomy
Have no desire to lead or follow
Dislike mundane detail
Not particularly interested in the practical application of their work
Creative and insightful
Future-oriented
Usually brilliant and ingenius
Trust their own insights and opinions above others
Live primarily inside their own minds, and may appear to be detached and uninvolved with other people
INTPs have a special gift with generating and analyzing theories and possibilities to prove or disprove them. They have a great deal of insight and are creative thinkers, which allows them to quickly grasp complex abstract thoughts. They also have exceptional logical and rational reasoning skills, which allows them to thoroughly analyze theories to discover the Truth about them. Since the INTP is driven to seek clarity in the world, we have a happy match of desire and ability in this personality type. INTPs will be happiest in careers which allow them a great deal of autonomy in which they can work primarily alone on developing and analyzing complex theories and abstractions, with the goal of their work being the discovery of a truth, rather than the discovery of a practical application.

The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an INTP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.

Possible Career Paths for the INTP:

Scientists - especially Physics, Chemistry
Photographers
Strategic Planners
Mathematicians
University Professors
Computer Programmers, Systems Analysts, Computer Animation and Computer Specialists
Technical Writers
Engineers
Lawyers / Attorneys
Judges
Forensic Research
Forestry and Park Rangers

According to Team Technology

What makes an INTP tick?
The Dominant function is the judging one of Thinking. Characteristics associated with this function include:

Likes making decisions on the basis of logic, using objective considerations
Is concerned with truth, principles and justice
Is analytical and critical, tending to see the flaws in situations
Takes an objective approach
The judging Thinking function is introverted. That is, Thinking is used primarily to govern the inner world of thoughts and emotions. The INTP will therefore:

spend time thinking analytically, organising thoughts on a logical basis
develop an understanding of the principles involved in a situation
spontaneously feel critical of a person or situation, but not necessarily express that criticism
be inwardly decisive, but not communicate those decisions to others
think mostly about impersonal issues, focusing more on concepts, truths and systems rather than individuals' feelings
The Thinking function is primarily supported by extraverted iNtuitive perception. That is, iNtuitive perception is used primarily to manage the outer world of actions and spoken words. This will modify the way that the Thinking is directed, by:

focusing the (inner world) Thinking on understanding possibilities for the future
perceiving patterns in information to support the logical analysis
The classic temperament of an INTP is Promethean, or Phlegmatic, for whom a basic driving force is the search for competence or excellence.

Contributions to the team of an INTP
In a team environment, the INTP can contribute by:

using analytical and critical skills to solve problems
focusing attention on the central issue
providing intellectual insight
suggesting ideas that achieve long and short term aims
viewing information objectively
The potential ways in which an INTP can irritate others include:

being too intellectual
finding too many flaws, and not accepting imperfect but 'good enough' solutions
not taking account of others' feelings
suggesting ideas and then appearing to change his/her mind
leave others to worry about implementation once the major problems have been solved
clinging to a principle at the expense of relationships and harmony

Personal Growth
As with all types, the INTP can achieve personal growth by developing all functions that are not fully developed, through actions such as:
expressing appreciation towards others
working within other people's limitations
accepting and praising others' imperfect efforts, if they are 'good enough'
consulting others more, and involving them in decisions, to engender ownership of the solution
spending time to develop personal relationships for their own sake
learning to acknowledge and develop the INTP's own emotions and personal values

Recognising Stress
As stress increases, 'learned behaviour' tends to give way to the natural style, so the INTP will behave more according to type when under greater stress. For example, in a crisis, the INTP might:

withdraw to think about the central issue that needs attention
suggest various ideas, and use the feedback received to support the intellectual analysis
debate the issue from an intellectual point of view, and leave it very late before making a decision
criticise others efforts and ignore their feelings
Under extreme stress, fatigue or illness, the INTP's shadow may appear - a negative form of ESFJ. Example characteristics are:

expressing intense negative emotions towards others
being very sensitive to criticism
becoming preoccupied with details, without any logical basis
interpreting facts or events in a very subjective way
The shadow is part of the unconscious that is often visible to others, onto whom the shadow is projected. The INTP may therefore readily see these faults in others without recognising it in him/her self.

FROM HTTP://CHESTON.COM/PBF/ARCHIVE.HTML

2006-06-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

SA WAKASSS!!! YESSS!!! YESSS!!! YESSS!!!

2006-06-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

And at long last, after hail, thunderstorm, and College Secretary Lourdes Portus, I MADE IT. (background music: Through The Rain by Barry Manilow, fade in for more dramatic effect) I went through a lot of heartaches and pains and sorrows and a bit of physicokinetic liposuction just to get all of them. In the end, it was all worth it.

And ahahahahahahahaha, I got all my subjects through PREROG. Now how's THAT for masochistic?

But anyway, here's my schedule, in case you need to stalk me or something more sublime than that:

43018 Lingg 130 MHV
Istruktura ng isang wika sa Pilipinas 3.0 MTh 11:30a-1:00p lec/dsc PH 428-426
CEPE, LAARNI

43031 Hapon 10 MHTFU
Elementaring Hapon I (Elementary Japanese I) 3.0 MTThF 10:00a-11:30a lec/dsc PH 424
PALMA GIL, FLORINDA AMPARO

43032 Hapon 11 MHTFU
Elementaring Hapon II (Elementary Japanese II) 3.0 MTThF 10:00a-11:30a lec/dsc PH 424
PALMA GIL, FLORINDA AMPARO

67224 Econ 100.2 FB
Intro. to Micro Theory and Policy 3.0 TF 9:00a-10:00a lec SE AUDI, F 8:00a-9:00a disc SE 105
(C)SE: barred
BAUTISTA, MARIA SOCORRO

69973 Stat 117 TFW
3.0 TF 1:00p-2:30p lec SS 105
(P)BS Stat
CAPISTRANO, THERESE ANN

69978 Stat 114 TFX
3.0 TF 2:30p-4:00p lec SS 103
(P)BS Stat
ALMEDA, JOSEFINA

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Isn't it just WONDERFUL? ^____^~sam

TIME WILL REVEAL

2006-06-03T11:43:00.000+08:00

DEBARGE

What can I do?
To make you feel secure
Remove all your doubts
So that you'll know for sure that you're the apple of my eye, girl
Fulfillment of my dreams
Time, will show the value
Of just what you mean to me
More precious than silver
More precious than diamond rings or anything that I can give you
It wouldn't mean a thing
If you didn't have my love beside you there to guide you through
Well it is good to know you do

I know just how you feel
Well this time love's for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that's deep inside of us all will reveal in time

I tell you I love you, but you don't believe it's true
More precious than silver
More precious than diamond rings or anything that I can give you
It wouldn't mean a thing
If you didn't have my love beside you there to guide you through
But it is good to know you do, ahh

I know just how you feel
But this time love's for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that's deep inside of us will all reveal in time

I know just how you feel
But this time love's for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that's deep inside of us all will reveal in time

Da da da...
Or anything that I could give you
It wouldn't mean a thing
If you didn't have my love beside you there to guide you through
Well it is good to know you do, ahh

I know just how you feel
But this time love's for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that's deep inside of us will all reveal in time

I know just how you feel
But this time love's for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that's deep inside of us will all reveal in time

Oh, that special love in us will all reveal in time
So let your little heart lay down upon me

I know just how you feel
But this time love's for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that's deep inside of us will all reveal in time

AFTER THE LOVE IS GONE

2006-06-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

EARTH WIND & FIRE

For awhile to love was all we could do
We were young and we knew
And our eyes were alive
Deep inside we knew our love was true
For awhile we paid no mind to the past
We knew love would last
Evry night somethin right
Would invite us to begin the dance

Somethin happened along the way
What used to be happy was sad
Somethin happened along the way
And yesterday was all we had
And oh after the love has gone
How could you lead me on
And not let me stay around
Oh oh oh afterthe love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love thats lost be found

For awhile to love each other with all
We would ever need
Love was strong for so long
Never knew that what was
Wrong oh baby wasnt right
We tried to find what we had
Till sadness was all we shared
We were scared this affair would lead our love into
Somethin happened along the way
Yesterday was all we had
Somethin happened along the way
What used to be happy is sad

Somethin happened along the way
Oh yesterday was all we had
And oh after the love has gone
How could you lead me on
And not let me stay around
Oh oh oh after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love thats lost be found

Oh oh oh oh oh oh after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love thats lost be found
Oh woh woh after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love thats lost be found

Oh woh woh after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love thats lost be found
Oh woh woh
Oh woh woh after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love thats lost be found

Woh woh woh after the love has gone
What used to be right is wrong
Can love thats lost be found
Woh woh woh

EVERY NOW AND THEN

2006-06-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

EARTH WIND & FIRE

I think that the worst is through
Im almost over you
I guess it was just a matter of time
Ive started going out
How long can anybody go without
Before you start goin out of your mind
Even so, I confess
There are times when my heart rules over my head

(chorus)
Every now and then
I find myself wondering about you baby
Seems now and again
I cant escape the thought of all that
Might have been
Every now and then

Mornings the hardest time
I wake up dreamin bout you and i
Some days I cant remember them all
Evenings are painfull still
I cant help wondering if they always
Will be
I cant help noticing this emptiness-
Baby
I dont cry, every night
Just the ones when I feel like I feel tonight

(chorus)
Every now and then
I find myself wondering about you baby
Seems now and again
I cant escape the thought of all that
Might have been
Every now and then

(bridge)
When Im alone anytime I hear music play
When I reach, reach for the phone
Why does everything good
Make me think of you baby

(chorus)
Every now and then
I find myself wondering about you baby
Seems now and again
I cant escape the thought of all that
Might have been
Every now and then

AN EARNEST POST TO DEAREST JAM 4

2006-06-03T11:27:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid I can't hang out at the UJP tambayan this coming year. But rest assured I will be there come GAs or special meetings or IP Committee activities. A text away and I will find time in my schedule for special IP activities. Though I can't hang out, rest assured I'll be (as much as possible) functional to the org. After all, that's what I joined the UJP for, right? Ü

So there. I hope I made myself clear. ^___^ See you Wednesday! ^____^

NAGPAPARAMDAM LANG

2006-05-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

Kamusta na kayong lahat? :D

I'LL BE THERE

2006-05-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

MICHAEL JACKSON

You and I must make a pact
We must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you,
I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

Chorus:
And oh - I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you
I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on
Yes I will, yes I will

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me, I'll be there
I'll be there to protect you
With an unselfish love I respect you
Just call my name and I'll be there

(Chorus)

If you should ever find someone new
I know he'd better be good to you
'Cos if he doesn't, I'll be there

Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there

(Just look over your shoulders, honey - ooh)

I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there

Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah
I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there...

IT'S GONNA RAIN

2006-05-27T11:53:00.000+08:00

RUROUNI KENSHIN CLOSING SONG

Ashidori mo karukushite chao chao
Torumono mo toriaezu chao chao
Raion ga unaru mitai no raimei ga
Taisan wo unagashite iru
Dou naru no?
Sou...mou sugu ame

Dai kirai ame nanka chao chao
Mou sukoshi itai noni
Kaikan ga kaisan ni kawaru shunkan wo
Raion ga isogaseta no wa
Meihaku No! Meiwaku
It's gonna rain!

Ame wa mou aribai wo kesu no?
Kare wa mou wasurete shimau no?
Futari wa mou korekiri ni naru no?
Subete wa ame no seitte koto ni shite okou

Kare kara no renraku wa Nothing Nothing
Ame ni yoru kyoukun mo Nothing Nothing
Kanjou mo igirisu no tenki mitai ni
Utsurigi dattara totemo
Raku nanoni...gyaku na no
It's gonna rain!

Ame ga netsu wo yomigaeraseta
Kare mo futo watashi wo omoidashita
Futari wa ima koko ni michibikareta
Subete wa ame no sei, uun, okage na no

Ame wa hito wo yondari keshitari
Dare yori mo tegowai majishan ne
Futari wa itsumo damasarete bakari
Subete wa ame de hajimarun deshou...

It's gonna rain!

JUST PISSED OFF

2006-05-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

Oh. Really, I'm usually not like this. I am one of the most cheerful people around(though it doesn't show), and now I cannot help but actually FEEL it.

Sigh.

I WILL BE HERE FOR YOU

2006-05-18T13:51:00.000+08:00

MICHAEL W. SMITH

When you feel the sunlight
Fade into the cold night
Don't know where to turn
Don't know where to turn
And all the dreams you're dreaming
Seem to lose their meaning
Let me in your world
Baby, let me in your world

All you need is someone you can hold
Don't be sad, you're not alone

I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

In this world of strangers
Of cold, unfriendly faces
There's someone you can trust
Oh there's someone you can trust
I will be your shelter
I'll give you my shoulder
Just reach out for my love
Reach out for my love

Call my name
And my heart will hear
I will be there, there's nothing to fear

I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

(guitar solo)

I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by

I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by

I will be here for you
I will be here for you

IN HOTTER WATER

2006-05-07T17:44:00.000+08:00

Oh good Lord. I should not be doing this, but in my great time of depression I just feel like sharing something today. Here is a problem worse than the previous post.

The family of mine is in a tight financial crisis right now(yuck, I sound like I'm right off Pinoy Big Brother) and my family can't afford to send me to school for a year. Yeah. So I guess either I postpone my schooling for a year, or I have to work as a contact center agent for the same year. I have to choose.

So I guess I probably won't be seeing you all for a year and a half. Sigh...

I'm really depressed right now. If you have a peso to spare please drop me a comforting line at +639063092107.I may not reply to you, as I am impecunious right now, but thanks in advance. Very much appreciated.

IN HOT WATER

2006-04-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

Okay, so this is gonna be hard. Lord help me...

I am a non-major already. Yeah. As early as now, I see a hard life ahead of me. Now thank you. I do not regret anything that I've done, but like I've written a week ago, I am making some MAJOR changes in my schedule (and consequently my attitude and my life, if I am to stay in the university. So much for saving my own butt. I myself got fried in the process. Pah.

AN EARNEST POST TO DEAREST JAM 3

2006-04-06T14:07:00.000+08:00

Daaaahling, there have been MAJOR changes in my plan. You see, it is inevitable that I work (hint: think graveyard) next semester (and probably next next), and that means if I am to be good at something (read: investigative) I probably won't make it with a schedule such as mine. If I get Sir Khan's Comm 120 next semester we can still meet at least once a week. Hope you understand. With such an awry state of finances like the one I am in right now one can easily think of suicide. But am not suicidal. I just have to find myself a job, but have to sacrifice some things in my life. Am really sorry. I might even take J 121 next semester if things get worse, you see. Please understand. T_T

By the way, I have this great idea for publicity materials for harvesting applicants next semester. Heehee. As a (future) member of IPComm, let me bare you my plans VERY early next semester. I think you'll love it. And so will the Union.

Till here for now... Hope you understand.

Am meaning well,

SOMETHING FROM BASHO

2006-04-06T13:57:00.000+08:00

Natsugusa ya
Tsuwamonodomo ga
Yume no ato

(Summer grass
Great warriors
Remains of dreams)

Interpretation by C. H. Page:
Old battlefield, fresh with spring flowers again
All that is left of the dreams
Of twice ten thousand warriors slain
(Thanks to http://www.lifepositive.com/Mind/arts/new-age-fiction/satori.asp for this one. It SO is me right now.)

THE U.R.L. OF THIS BLOG IS

2006-04-06T13:20:00.000+08:00

distilled39proof.blogspot.com/

Maybe you are curious as to why this blog had a URL like that. It's so freaky, it's crap, and it takes too long to type. Maybe I'm really just ITCHING to tell you why that is the URL of my blog.

First, "Distilled." The word sounds cute, and since I had a frustration regarding matters of Chemistry, I think I'd well include that. Truth be told, I don't distill anything at all in this blog. I write whatever meager material I find in my brain at the time of sitting in front of the computer.

Second, "39." This had been but recently a favorite number of mine, along with 13 (the deviant side of me) and three (the least-known side of me.) So there. If you had an iota of observation, you would've noticed.

Third, and this is a crash course on dilution measurements. "Proof." Have you ever noticed that spirit bottle labels always have the word "proof" written on them, preceded by a number? Yeah, that's it. I think Ginebra San Miguel says "80 proof", Tanduay maybe even more so. The word 'proof' in Chemistry (and for those of you who are not yet inebriated after reading that label) is a measurement of the dissolution of a liquid in another liquid, that is, how much solute is in a given amount of solvent. 'Proof' means '1/2 percent per volume'. For those of you who do drink, that means for every one proof in a given shot glass, one-half percent of it is alcohol. Ginebra San Miguel's 80 proof, therefore, means 40% alcohol. Meaning for every liter of GSM you drink, 400 mL of it is alcohol, detoxified everytime by your poor liver. And when your liver is overtaxed... well, that's up to you.

Well, so much for explaining. Now you know how to measure the alcohol content of a drink. Now you know why the URL of this blog is like that.

OKAY, NOT SO RANDOM, BUT DAMN

2006-04-06T13:13:00.000+08:00

RANDOM COMIC SAMPLING

2006-04-06T12:55:00.000+08:00

A LITTLE SURVEY TO WARD OFF SOME BLUES

2006-04-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

Place an X by all the things you've done, or remove the x from the ones you have not, and send it to all of your friends (including me). A bit of fun. . . Don't forget to change the name in the subject line to your own and to "copy and paste". Pass this on to all your friends and back to me, also!

This is for your entire life thus far:

PART 1:
Smoked a cigarette...
Crashed a friend's car...
Stolen a car...
Been in love... X
Been dumped...
Shoplifted... X (oh goodness!)
Been fired...
Been in a fist fight...
Snuck out of your parent's house... X
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back... X
Been arrested...
Gone on a blind date...
Lied to a friend... X
Skipped school... X (oh yesssss....)
Seen someone die...
Been to Canada ...
Been to Mexico ...
Flown on a plane...
Purposely set a part of yourself on fire...
Eaten sushi... X
Been skiing...
Met someone from the internet...
Been to a concert... X
Taken pain-killers... X
Love someone or miss someone right now... X
Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by...
Made a snow angel...
Had a tea party...
Flown a kite...
Built a sand castle...
Gone puddle jumping...
Played dress up...
Jumped into a pile of leaves...
Gone sledding...
Cheated while playing a game... X (ohhohoho!)
Been lonely... X
Fallen asleep at work/school... X
Used a fake ID... X (ako pa!)
Watched the sun set... X
Felt an earthquake... X
Slept beneath the stars... X
Been tickled... X
Been robbed ... X
Been misunderstood... X
Petted a reindeer/deer/goat/kangaroo OR jackalope...
Won a contest... X
Run a red light/stop sign...
Been suspended from school... (oi hindi pa ako nahuhuli no!)
Been in a car wreck...
Had braces...
Felt like an outcast/third person... X
Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night...
Danced in the moonlight... X
Liked the way you looked... X
Witnessed a crime... X (lotsa!)
Questioned your heart ... X
Been obsessed with post-it notes... X
Squished mud through your bare toes... X (well, out of necessity)
Been lost... X
Been on the opposite side of the country...
Swam in the ocean...
Felt like dying...
Cried yourself to sleep... X
Played cops and robbers... X
Recently colored with crayons... X
Sang karaoke... X (gusto n'yo Super Sale Club tayo?!?)
Paid for a meal with only coins... X (madalas 'to sa likod ng Narra)
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't... X
Made prank phone call... (nah, but you gave me an idea. maybe 'pag yumaman na ko... :P)
Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose...
Caught a snowflake on your tongue...
Licked a pole when it was freezing outside...
Danced in the rain... X
Written a letter to Santa Claus...
Been kissed under the mistletoe...
Watched the sun rise with someone you care about...
Blown bubbles... X
Made a bonfire on the beach...
Crashed a party... X (oya Datu! let's! :D))))
Gone roller-skating...
Had a wish come true...X
Jumped off a bridge to swim...

PART 2:
1. What time is it? 6:13pm
2. What is your name? Masakatsu Gorospe Kakuta
3. Any nicknames? Sam, Li, Masa(but that was in elementary)
4. Mother's name? Shirley
5. What is your favorite drink? Coke light (ditto Dana!)
6. Tattoos? No
7. Piercings? Nah. Am needle-phobic.
8. How much do you love your job? Not working as of now.
9. Birthplace: Manila, Philippines
10. Favorite vacation spot? (I wish!) The Fjords in Northern Europe.
12. Ever steal any traffic signs? No
13. Ever been in a car accident? Nah. Maxado akong jologs para magka-kotse. Wehe. :D
14. How many children? None
16. Favorite pie? Pizza. No, seriously.
17. Favorite number? 39, 13, and 3.
18. Favorite movie? Central Station, Innocent Steps, etc. Read the sidebar, won't you?
19. Favorite holiday? New Year's
20. Favorite food? Chinese
21. Favorite day of the week? Friday
22. Favorite brand of body soap? Safeguard
23. Favorite TV show? Naruto, and Iron Chef
24. Favorite smell? Citrus
25. What do you do to relax? Write, and a cup of coffee with two tablespoons Coffeemate.
26. Message to your friends reading this? I just needed to do this. Haha.
27. How do you see yourself in 10 years? In a condo unit in Makati... eh, cliche!
28. What do you do when you are bored? ~~I pick my nose.~~ I read an Economics textbook with twenty packets of Chikito cracker nuts beside me. Haha.
29. Who do you enjoy receiving kisses from? Kisses? Oh goodness...
30. Furthest place you will send this message? I'm posting it on my blog, thank you very much.
31. Who will respond the fastest? dunno.
32. Least likely to respond? dunno.
33. What time is it now? 6:45pm.

Whew. Just needed to git that offa mah chest. Thankie. :D

AM FEELING FINE, THANK YOU VERY MUCH

2006-04-05T18:21:00.000+08:00

Really. I'm feeling fine. I don't think I'll be having summer classes, though. I need time to rest. :D And besides, the family's financial constraints won't allow me to. So I'll just have some nice R & R. Waha.

YOU. YEAH, YOU.

2006-03-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

Do you know the feeling when (at least for me, sometimes) life deals you the ugliest hand of cards you've ever seen? You shuffle your feet, look for something that could possibly resemble a full house, or even just a three of a kind, when against all chance and luck and probability you get nothing but singles! And you rack your brain for the best that you can do with your situation, and silently pray that others have been dealt a hand uglier than yours. Ah, but what could be uglier than a hand full of singles? Life certainly is unfair. You've piled up a nice neat sum of chips, and you know that it's yours, and it will still accumulate as the game progresses, but a masterly stroke of the dealer's hand, and bang! You're dead meat!

And that just happened to me. The Tomo-Kai people gave up on me in the deliberations. They swept away with just one decision all that I worked so hard to accumulate. They made me lean on an esperanza falsa. And I'm certain it's because of my unpleasant character that they decided to strike me out from the application process. I know that I've done well in the activities, else I'd not have passed the informal interview. I know that my creed is in sync with theirs, else I'd not have passed the formal interview. But to strike me out when deliberation time came... only my character could have been the reason. I know I'm a very much unpleasant person to be with. I've studied my behavior in the past. But I don't know what the source of unpleasantries in me is. No one will ever tell me. People are too polite to tell me anything. I don't know what to change in me. And because of that I cannot change my character.

And now I can't go to the induction. Funny. Life deals you the ugliest hand of cards when you least expect it. Do you know the feeling?

SOME PHOTOS I'D LIKE TO KEEP HIDDEN FROM YOU, BUT

2006-03-28T13:07:00.000+08:00

These were taken from Tomo-Kai's Challenge Week, also known as 'Hell Week'.

From left to right: Me, Micchan, Er, and Kamille

From left to right: Me, Sistah Koneko-chan, and Edrick

Well, there are some things you'd like to share. And some you don't, but do so in the interest of blogging. Ja ne!

THROWS HANDS UP

2006-03-28T12:54:00.000+08:00

Okay. That's it. I'm giving up on most of my subjects for this semester. I've learned a lesson, and I've learned it the painful way. This sem I've did a lot of crappy things when it came to my academics, and NEVER AGAIN! am I doing an encore. I've force-dropped J 100. I'm sure I'll fail in at least two subjects, and I've given up on the third. This has become so grandiose a distraction this semester, and I'm never letting myself get distracted again. *whew* I'm changing my schedule radically next semester, thank you very much.

YOU

2006-03-28T12:51:00.000+08:00

THE CARPENTERS

You are the one who makes me happy
When everything else turns to grey
Yours is the voice that wakes me mornings
And sends me out into the day
You are the crowd that sits quiet
Listening to me
And all the mad sense that i make

You are one of the few things worth remembering
And since it's all true
How could anyone mean more to me than you

Sorry if sometimes i look past you
There's no one beyond your eyes
Inside my head wheels are turning
Hey, sometimes im not so wise
You are my heart and my soul my inspiration
Just like the old love song goes

You are one of the few things worth remembering
And since it's all true
How could anyone mean more to me than you

ANOTHER EARNEST POST TO JAM

2006-03-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

*tenderly multiply*

I'm very much regretting that I can't come with you for reasons that are pure happenstance. I hope you understand. Circumstances permitting, UP Tomo-Kai will add me to its roster of members come APRIL 1-2. And yes, I really want to come, because it's the induction of Alitaptap Batch 2. Mga batchmates na nga lang yung matitirang iiinduct, wala pa ako dun para sumuporta, 'di ba?. But I really can't. I myself have an induction to go to. And I will be the one in blindfolds (and once more, thank you very much).

So there. Hoping for your kind consideration.

Am meaning well,

AND SO TENDERLY MULTIPLIES

2006-03-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

In a translation of Benedict Anderson(by far the most unintelligible author I've read) of a part of Rizal's Noli Me Tangere, he has a line that says the poor of Manila 'so tenderly multiplies'. And I have a pretty good idea of what it applies to in my time.

And yup, those are the below class E economic rating. And yup, you do realize how they tenderly multiply everyday, all because of Arroyo's f*cking policies. Ooops, sorry. I can't help it. I just have to swear whenever Arroyo comes into the discussion. She clings to her post like ~~a barnacle~~ barnacles at the bottom of a neglected ship. And f*ck her, she's damn good at it. And while she's playing her damn stupid game, the masses *tenderly multiply.*

Arrrgh.

DON'T DREAM IT'S OVER

2006-03-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

CROWDED HOUSE

There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
While you're traveling with me

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the T.V. page

Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
Don't ever let them win

*________________________________________
This was the song I sang at the induction of our batch (of course, Alitaptap! mishu guys!) at Antipolo last sem. Of course I am in Journalism, and my future career leaves me with only two options: to go against the flow, or to go with it. The former was proved a fatal choice by history only so many times. I still do not stop dreaming of a time where power is not everything, and when negative media is at least tolerated, if not welcomed. That time is a time where politicians do not make journalists dream that it's over. I have moved on to a new phase in my life where I have seriously considered Journalism as my career. And I still do not dream it's over. At least not yet. I will see where those damn politicians will take me...

SOMETHING FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT

2006-03-23T21:44:00.000+08:00

I usually don't place anything here that I didn't write myself, save for song lyrics and very much noteworthy ones. And here's a noteworthy one. It should apply to me. Not necessarily for you, my dear readers, as you are worth more of a mortal than I am. But read anyway for a better mortal that is you(if you, of course, apply this):

THE SEVEN C'S OF SUCCESS by Chris Widener

Get ready to sail the Seven C's - the Seven C's of Success that is. Learn to navigate your ship of destiny in these seven "C's" if you want to be a total success. Here they are, in alphabetical order:

1. Caring - I believe that to be a true success in this world we must have a bigger vision than simply accomplishing a goal for ourselves or simply lining our own pockets. I believe that successful people have a deep caring for others. Yes, they are aggressive, but they are not aggressive to the point that they run roughshod over others.

Question: What is your care factor? Have you placed people in their proper place, as people worthy of dignity, respect, and proper treatment? Or have you begun to treat others as a means to an end for yourself?

2. Character - Becoming a success is more than increasing the digits in your bank account. In fact, I believe ANYONE can increase his or her bank account with a simple plan. Financial development is the easy part. Character development is the hard part, letting each and every experience shape and mold us as we experience them, always moving toward our goal and never allowing negative circumstances to destroy us but make us better people. This is what true success is about!

Question: How is your character? Are you becoming a better person with each passing experience? Are you becoming a rock of wisdom and experience, deepening your foundation of character?

3. Choice - Eisenhower reminded us that our histories are written by choice, not by chance. Every movement you make toward your ultimate success and destiny will be because you choose to move toward it. The actions that you choose, each and every day will add up, over the long-term, to your final destination. The power we have as humans to choose is one of the greatest gifts known to mankind.

Question: Do you choose success with each and every choice you make? Each choice you make either moves you toward your goal or away from it. Which do you choose?

4. Concentration - Often those who fail do so because they lose their concentration. Something else comes along and becomes their newfound fancy. They move from whim to whim, tossed to and fro by the strong blowing winds. The successful person however, stands firm, with their eyes transfixed on the goal. One of my favorite posters as a boy was of George Brett of the Kansas City Royals Baseball Team. The picture was
taken just as the bat was hitting the ball. Where were George's eyes? Straight down the barrel of the bat, looking at the point where the ball and bat came together. Now that is concentration!

Question: How is your concentration? Do you stick to your goal and focus firmly on it, or do you let your mind and heart wander from whim to whim? ___________________________________________

"Ultimately the people who win, who achieve victory in Life are the people who are committed to it. They outlast everybody else. Because quite frankly all success in business, all success in relationships, all success in life comes at the end of the road of commitment!" -- Chris Widener (excerpted from Secrets of Influence)
___________________________________________

5. Confidence - Success comes to those who have the confidence to try, and more than that, the confidence to win. Confidence is something that you can grow in your mind and heart. Each passing victory that you achieve builds more and more confidence in you to draw from the next time you go to fight another battle on your journey to success. Do what you can to build confidence inside of yourself so you will be able to dip deeply into that well when you need it!

Question: How is your confidence? Do you believe that you can achieve what you conceive? Are you winning victories that you can then draw on later?

6. Consistency - People who become a success realize that to a great degree, success is a formula. At the very least it is sticking to doing the right things for a long enough period of time for them to create their destiny. This is consistency. They consistently do the things that will bring them their success. Tiger Woods hits hundreds of practice balls each and every day. He doesn't do 100 one day, then two days off, then 500 balls, then a day off, then 300 balls, then three days off. No, he knows the power of consistency and has achieved a level of success that that consistency formulated for him.

Question: How is your consistency? Are you consistent? Are you doing the things you need to do each and every day that will bring your goal to you?

7. Courage - Successful people are brave people. They know that even success has its challenges, yet they face them head on and move forward anyway. No mountain is too high, nor river too wide, nor foe too large for the person who will choose to live out their dreams! They are courageous people who continue on even when others have quit. And for that they receive their reward!

Question: How about you? Are you courageous? Are you willing to face the obstacles and move forward in spite of the fear that may try to well up within you? Be courageous and you will succeed!

THAT'S ALL I ASK OF YOUUUUUU......

2006-03-22T16:56:00.000+08:00

Well hello! I reckon if you are reading this thoroughly, you personally know me and have time to spare. Is it so much for me to ask something as little as a minute of your time? Please think of me for a moment. (I see that silly grin on your face! Heehee!) Then please click!

My Interactive Johari Window

And also click this!

My Interactive Nohari Window

It's okay, I can take criticisms. After all, if I do not know what people think of me I'll be unable to improve myself. So please, take a moment, and THANK YOU VERY MUCH! ^_^ I very much appreciate it! ^_^

ALONE

2006-03-22T16:35:00.000+08:00

HEART

I hear the ticking of the clock
I’m lying here the room’s pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won’t end though
Alone

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

You don’t know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don’t know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone

JUST FELT LIKE SHARING SOMETHING. YEAH.

2006-03-22T15:43:00.000+08:00

There were times when I fooled around with Adobe Photoshop on Datu's PC, and out of sheer desperate itching for something to do I fantasized myself as a National Geographic Reporter. And yes, there are times I have these grandiose illusions of myself(now what was that psych term when I need it?). After all, I'm only human. And so when I finally came to myself I realized what a nice product I've made. And lookie!

Click here to be directed to the larger picture.

Heehee. :D

THEM IRO WANTED TO STAY AS NIJIIRO

2006-03-22T15:02:00.000+08:00

Then there were thirteen of us left of the applicants of UP Tomo-Kai this semester, from the eighteen that wanted to stay. Circumstances forced out the other five, some bad, some good. I dedicate this post to those that wanted to remain but became victims of circumstance.

Ate Joey really wanted to stay, but due to some words found in her blog that were deemed offensive by the members and the alumni, she had no choice but to forfeit the application process. I should have cauntioned her earlier. Of course it's her blog and one can place anything he/she wants in her blog, but we should be aware that other people also read what we publish. I still am for Ate Joey, of course. The issue should not have been overblown, and the offensive line asked removed from her posts.

Triksi really wanted to stay, but she had some difficulties with her Kas 1. And so, prioritizing first her studies(which should be SOP for all of us in the University), she dropped out.

Japo had to drop out because she was running for Philo Representative post. End of story.

Yana also wanted to, but she had many other things to do. At such a young age, she was given so much responsibilities in her home. That is why I disagree with our batch head. She can, and she really can, but only if she turns her back on her family and if she is heartless she will. I really wanted to tell Yana something to cheer her up, and to encourage her to do apply next semester.

Yasune wanted to, but he cannot handle the pressure of the application period. Of course he is immature. I can understand how he feels. I also am an immature person; and only people who are not empathetic cannot understand how Yasune feels. Then there's the pressure of him trying to get good grades. The organization itself emphasizes the need to prioritize studies before the application. There.

To all you left behind, the next time we meet, I'll support you all and be kind to you if ever you apply again. Of course, guaranteed that I'll be there next sem, either as a member or as a re-applicant. ^__^ I love you people! ^_^

AN EARNEST POST TO DEAREST JAM

2006-03-22T14:01:00.000+08:00

I'm very sorry. There might be some changes in my schedule. I have fallback plans at every step. I have been cursed by the ancients with the (bad) luck of getting all the wrong timeslots when it comes to CRS. My mind also is very much volatile. So I cannot guarantee that I can even wait for Ma'am Chua. I'm very much sorry, Jammie dear. I hope you understand. Alam ko naman magiging magkaklase tayo sa isang class next sem e. So peace, and I'll see you probably next semester. :D

DISPARAGIA 4

2006-03-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

And in my despair over myself I have placed the following subjects on my Summer Pre-enlistment. A word before you even gloss over its contents and react violently: I know that in the BA Journ curriculum Language subjects are not allowed. But I will insist. It will not matter:

PE 2 TN W7 () MTWThF 4:00p-5:30p lec/lab TENNIS CRT
Hapon 10 X4-1 3 MTWThF 1:00p-3:00p lec/dsc PH 428-426
Hapon 10 X4-2 3 MTWThF 1:00p-3:00p lec/dsc PH 430
Intsik 10 X1 3 MTWThF 7:00a-9:00a lec/dsc PH 430
Fil 40 X2-A 3 MTWThF 9:00a-11:00a lec/dsc CAL 408

So there. Whew.

ADIA

2006-03-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

Sarah McLachlan

Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
Don’t you know I tried so hard
To love you in my way
It’s easy let it go...
Adia I’m empty since you left me
Trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
To see where we went wrong
’cause there’s no one left to finger
There’s no one here to blame
There’s no one left to talk to, honey
And there ain’t no one to buy our innocence
’cause we are born innocent
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter
Does it matter?
Adia I thought that we could make it
But I know I can’t change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
A friend who won’t betray
I'd pull you from your tower
I'd take away your pain
And show you all the beauty you possess
If you’d only let yourself believe that
We are born innocent
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter, does it matter?
Believe me adia, we are still innocent
’cause we are born innocent
Adia we are still innocent
It’s easy, we all falter ... but does it matter?

THE PARETO PRINCIPLE

2006-03-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

And efficiency is the point when you can make something when you cannot sacrifice even a smallest amount of something other. This is the Pareto principle.

Honestly I feel that I have not yet reached the Pareto definition of efficiency. One, for example, I can accomplish so much more without sacrificing any of what I do right now. I still have so much more time on my hands, but they all spirit away into the ether like sucked by a vortex because of time (mis)management and my being easily distracted. I quickly lose focus of what I do, and set all the wrong priorities when I should be doing something more productive.

Why is this? I think I tend to be an escapist. Oh shoot. That term. I always hated that term. Until I realized it held true for me.

But let me reorganize my life. Come next sem mayhaps I can be Pareto efficient. :D

FOR MORE NERDINESS

2006-03-15T15:51:00.000+08:00

Have already seen on the CRS most of the subjects I want to take next semester, assuming they still accept me after a probationary thingy. Here they are:

J 151 TFR TF 8:30a-10:00a lec/dsc M 203 JAZMINES, MA. THERESA
J 152 TFU TF 10:00a-11:30a lec/dsc M 203 JAZMINES, MA. THERESA
J 192 TFW TF 1:00p-2:30p lec/dsc M 209 TEODORO, LUIS, JR.
J 103 TFX TF 2:30p-4:00p lec/dsc M 209 TEODORO, LUIS, JR.
Comm 120 SRU S 9:00a-12:00p lec M 203 KHAN, RAFAEL HANNIBAL
Comm 141 WWX2 W 1:00p-4:00p lec B5 PAGLINAUAN, ELLEN
Comm Res 101 MRU M 8:30a-11:30a lec A 201 TBA

Note: This is NOT the final list of the subjects I wanna take next semester. But am fishing, thank you very much. :D

JUST FOR ARCHIVES

2006-03-13T11:00:00.000+08:00

Kakuta, Masakatsu G.
2003-15415 BA Journalism
Concept Paper PI 100

Si Rizal at ang Rebolusyon bilang Case Study ng mga Teorya ni F. Tönnies

Para sa aking term paper ang nais kong talakayin ay ang mga konsepto ng Gemeinschaft at Gesellschaft. Pagdurugtungin ko ang mga konseptong ito sa pagtatalaga ni Rizal sa kanyang kaisipan ng kung ano ang Pilipinas bilang isang nasyon, o sa turing ni Benedict Anderson, bilang isang “Imagined Community.” Hindi na rito idadamay ang mga tinalakay na sa aklat ni Anderson na “Imagined Communities” sapagkat ang pagtalakay sa dalawang konseptong nabanggit sa pagliliwanag ng obra ni Anderson ay nangangailangan ng matinding pananaliksik, at ang kakapusan ng panahon ay hindi makapapayag na tapusin ang term paper sa loob ng dalawang lingo o kulang pa.
Ang sosyolohikong Aleman na si Ferdinand Tönnies ay namuhay na humigit-kumulang kasabay ni Rizal. Ang kanyang aklat ng teorya na “Gemeinschaft und Gesellschaft” ay unang inilathala noong 1887, sa panahong masigla ang kilusang intelektwal sa Europa at sa panahong ang mga bansang Europeo ay nasa proseso pa lamang ng pagkamulat sa kamalayang nasyonal. Ang mga bansang Europeo rin ay nasa isang proseso ng teoretikal at aktwal na pamumuo-pagwasak (halimbawa’y ang dinastiyang Habsburg at ang mga nagkakaisang tribo na sumali sa Unyong Prussia). Si Rizal na isang masugid na tagasubaybay ng mga eksenang political sa Europa at isa ring produkto ng mga kilusang intelektwal doon, ay hindi malayong naging konektado kay Tönnies. Maaaring si Tönnies ay nakaimpluwensiya kay Rizal, o maaaring si Rizal ay naging case study ni Tönnies. Ngunit kilala man nila ang isa’t isa o hindi, mapapansin na may koneksyon ang kanilang mga produktong pangkaisipan, at nilalayon ng aking term paper ang tuklasin ang aktuwal na pagkakapareho (na mapupunta sa aplikasyon) ng kanilang mga ideya.
Hindi naman magkahawig ang pagtrato ng term paper sa dalawang taong ito. Kailangang maunawaan na si Tönnies ay isang teoretiko, at ang kanyang mga kasulatan karamihan ay ukol sa teorya. Si Rizal naman ay noong mga panahong iyon pinagtutuunan ng pansin ng himagsikang Pilipino at ang paggamit ng kanyang mga nalalaman sa ikasusulong ng rebolusyon. Magkaiba ang dimensyong ginagalawan nina Tönnies at Rizal, ngunit ang kanilang mga ideya ay hindi malayong paghambingin, at iyon nga ang layon ng term paper.

INDULGENCE

2006-03-08T11:03:00.000+08:00

Then there are some things that I'd rather forget in a brief moment's encounter with one of my favorite addictions, the internet. Indulgence sets in and ruins much of what I really had in mind: research, e-mail, some friendster maybe, and then I'm off to print that report.

But sometimes (erm, well, you see, it's just really SOMETIMES. case closed.) I wander off, what with me being an easily distractible person. I'll tell you something. Sometimes I get so distracted I become a member of an organization by accident! Hee, hee. I confess someone distracted me into joining the Union of Journalists of the Philippines-UP Diliman. Hee, hee. It was not in my original plan to join an org, but sometimes I see something new, and then I tell myself, "Oh, what the hell. I guess there's no harm in trying to see what's inside, hee, hee." And here I am, getting distracted by another org: the UP Tomo-Kai. I am trying to see where this distraction will lead me. I have resigned to a life without a clear-cut path for me. I have resigned to my being distractible. Indulgence is the name of my game, and when I get to what I consider my threshhold, I... let's see. I might even get a trip to Japan. Just who knows? Hee, hee. :D

SUCH IRONY

2006-03-08T10:51:00.000+08:00

You are Strength.

Like its ruling sign Leo, this is a card of courage

and energy. It represents both the Lion's

hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's

steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is

unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some

cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others

she shuts it. Either way, she proves that

inner strength is more powerful than raw

physical strength. That forces can be

controlled and used to score a victory is

very close to the message of the Chariot,

which might be why, in some decks, it is

Justice that is card 8 instead of Strength.

This card assures the Querent that they can

control not only the situation, but

themselves. It is a card about anger and

impulse management, about creative answers,

leadership and maintaining one's personal

honor. It can also stand for a steadfast

friend.

What Tarot Card are You?
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OOOH, YOU PERV...

2006-03-08T10:38:00.000+08:00

Just when I was finally being rehabilitated back to sanity (and eventually the light the wisdom the limbo the nirvana the bodhisattvas had forestalled), you come into my dreams naked save for an apple in your hand. Why do you have to appear in my nocturnal phantasies? Now I am back to my old self again. :D

Not to say I didn't enjoy you last night, though.

LSS: DENNIS TRILLO

2006-03-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

Chorus(3x)

**********************************
Aaaaaargh. I HATE Kotex. Why'd they have to desecrate a favorite song from a favorite singing group of mine? Why don't they have the profanity to blaspheme someone else's song (for example, Sandwich's, or Pilita Corrales', or Ja Rule's, or Ashlee Simpson's)? WHY'D THEY HAVE TO TOUCH THAT SONG????

They've incurred the wrath of Masakatsu Kakuta. And Masakatsu Kakuta's not gonna cut them no slack. They'll get a taste of THIS! (And does some ~~exhibitionist~~ fantastic magic power thingy.)

AND THEM UJP EXECOMM PEOPLE WERE DECLARED...

2006-03-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

And so this day is a haggard day. I'm glad I got through, with a little help from my batchmates.

Today the officers of the Union were elected. Canvassed, the results looked very much predictable, save for one:

Chair -- Kathryn Röja Raymundo
Vice-Chair -- Glenn Perez
Sec Comm -- Annie Jane de Roxas
Fin Comm -- Rey Santos
IP Comm -- JOHANNA CAMILLE SISANTE (I prefer OUST, pero mas maganda pakinggan Sisante, eh. :D)
Mem Comm -- Rowena Caronan
Educ Comm --

Now here's something problematic. Marlon Borreo and Jake Soriano tied. Ano ba yan, dalawa na nga lang yung tumatakbo tie pa! Jam said they're gonna hold some special elections for them. I wish though that Marlon will win, even though I voted for Jake-kun...

Anyway, congratulations, dahlings. May you field further the ideas of the Union. :D

AM CONCERNED

2006-03-07T11:23:00.000+08:00

Hoy Glads, SPARE THE YOUNGER BROTHER. Wahaha. B.I. ka talaga. Ako na nga hinawaan mo. Tingnan mo ako ngayon. Isa na akong Gladdys protège. Waha.

Nga pala, tingin ko si Ma'am Simbulan tsaka si Ma'am Silva magtuturo ng J 121 next sem. Ano, go pa rin ba? :D Ako aantayin ko ang matinding Chua powers. Kaya lang pag hinintay mo kami ni Jam baka super delayed ka na. Whatcha gonna do? :D

DÉLINQUENT

2006-03-07T11:07:00.000+08:00

And what do I have here right now? I believe I have something here in my system called "Erotomania." Quoting the book of the prophet Gladdys Talip, Chapter 59, verse 6, it says here that:

Erotomania.
The core of the syndrome is that the affected person has a delusional belief that another person, usually of higher status, is secretly in love with them. The sufferer may also believe that the subject of their delusion secretly communicates their love by subtle methods such as body posture, arrangement of household objects and other seemingly innocuous acts. The object of the delusion usually has little or no contact with the delusional person, who often believes that the object initiated the fictional relationship.

Erotomanic delusions are typically found as the primary symptom of delusional disorder, or in the context of schizophrenia. [wikipedia.com]

And here I am right now, evaluating myself on the basis of the above passage, instead of completing the requirements for the UP Tomo-Kai application period. Oh holy twisted metal. The above verse rings clarion clear to me and proves itself true even without the other Gladdys arguments to that effect.

I AM AFFLICTED WITH EROTOMANIA.

No, with some minor things. That person I am in love with is NOT of a higher status. Failed Math 54 two times. (Oy, hindi ko binabagsak mga math series ko, 'no?) Is stupid. Is dark gloomy depressive. Is anything but happy. Is...

But still, save for that, EVERYTHING IS TRUE. Damn, Budz, you sure are as good as hell great in digging out medical terms as this. How can I not just LUUUUURRRRVVVE your intelligence? :D You are so damn GOOD, Glads. Heeheehee...

STILL WATERS, THEY

2006-02-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

Still waters calm
They are not for the ease
And comfort of one's mind.

Them still waters will
Contain in them, in a royal carriage,
The sleeping deity that is me.

And still waters, they
Can not possibly be disturbed,
For when you so much as to
Play the surface with your
Jocose attitude and touch it,
I shall rise from its depths
And with a fury not even
The gods of war can contain
I will grasp you unimportant
And strangle you till
The heavens that which
They still waters mirror
Return to me the waters
Which I unleashed to the sky
The moment I rose.

PINIONS OF LIGHT

2006-02-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

It is when I take off
Pinions of light
That leave to dust
That nascent impulse
And lifts to flight
Stubborn determination
To see just what it is
That I can achieve
And I still believe
That nothing can even
Slight my firm will
And supple vigor
So I call out and then
The heavens will
Listen and declare
I AM.

MY PERSONAL NUMBER IS 39

2006-02-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

I tried this site out: http://www.yarzheit.com/jonny/numerology.htm, and I saw some interesting ramblings. Somehow true:

NUMBER 39
39 is a curious number, where it reduces to 3 ( as 3+9= 12 and 12 =1+2 = 3 ) it should be optimistic , the 39 energy is however bordering on careful optimistim and restriction . And contains within it the pain of the number 12 energy but not as intense - Otherwise it is exactly the same as the number 3 . It is indeed a number of contradictions .

Reduced to:
NUMBER 3
The number three is the number of Optimism , movement and expansion .

3 represents growth and a need for a foundation to seek higher values .

3 represents a basis of growth, the need for a foundation in order to fulfill and aim for a greater ideal . They aim high and focus on nothing less than the truth in the conquest of life. They seek truthfulness in a love affair, friendship and in their careers, and will not be at peace with themselves unless they have perfected truthfulness, and fulfilled their values and ideals of their lives. Some people and entities of the 3 number achieve the goal of truth others fool themselves into believing their own illusions, until a point in their lives where everything falls apart, as their is no solid basis of truth .

3 represents people and energies that love their own independance, who also seek freedom of speech and movement . They can never be tied down to lifelong committments, as they will need the ability and flexibility to continue changing their minds, as they know intrinsically, that they do not have the whole truth at any moment in time, and will always want to learn more and expand their understanding .

Because of the quest for truth a number 3 will be devoutly religious or a committed atheist . Religion is an important part of their lives , as they are searching for understanding about life, they will question and hence have a deep belief in GOD or single Divine energy that created the universe, and in so doing make excellent ministers of any religion . As they exude a confidence that "they know what they are talking about", their character resonates an energy of committed truthfulness in their beliefs . Other people will sense their confidence and this brings peacefulness and reassurance to others . As they will continually try to rationalise and analyse their beliefs of religious understanding to suite the times and every event in life .

In the expansiveness of the 3 energy , they will probably need to "get out" of their homes, offices or workplaces to feel fully alive, which means sports activities walking in the countryside or simply jogging around the block . In their expansiveness they are also inclined to "gamble" and take risks , only when they feel convinced and absolutely certain .

The only problem with 3 people, is when they are convinced by their bad judgements, and then try convincing others, they will even bully and intimidate others to believing their false ways , therefore their uncompremising arrogance of expansiveness and unwilligness to listen to others point of view will cause resentment . There is no point in arguing with a number 3 , they simply will not listen , the best you can do is have closure and walk away . Life will teach them the hard way , and sometimes over many years, eventually they will re-assess their position and belief . But never expect an apology or admission of guilt from a number 3 person - you simply will never get it !

Hence number 3 people , when they have deciphered life correctly, they make excellent leaders and judges . When they have it wrong - you had best keep away from any discussions or arguments with them .

SHE

2006-02-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

Was tagged by Pat. *waves* Hi Pat! Pasalubong ko ha.:D

Anyway, pinatulan ko na rin, kahit na alam kong maaari akong sumabit dahil dito. Why you Patricia Rimando...

Before answering this I tag: Jam, Glads, Dana (ooops,), Datu, Ria-sensei, and... ooops, sorry, hindi ko magawang mag-tag ng walo, eh... sorry...

Rules:

1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.

2. Need to mention the sex of the target.

3. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

Anyway, in no particular order, here's 8 of the characteristics of a perfect Sam lover:

1. Must be more than willing to wash the dishes. :D

2. Must be willing to listen ALL THE TIME. I know it's demanding, but I am a sensitive person and I know when to give the person some time to talk herself. 'Nuff said.

3. Must be able to whip up some GOOD dishes, especially my favorite morning ritual: sinangag.

4. Not necessarily beautiful/sexy/curvaceous/Venus, but will help. And oh, LONG- AND STRAIGHT-HAIRED.

5. Must be from the same social stratum as I am; anhirap makitungo sa mayaman, lalo na kung hindi pa bumababa sa level ko. Not necessarily jologs, though.

6. Must be religious somehow. Most of the good traits will pick up from there. Hopefully.

7. Must be someone I can get RADICALLY comfortable with. No one has ever seen the most comfortable of me. And only SHE will.

8.
SOMEBODY
Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She’ll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out
And won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied
To anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I’m asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I’ll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....

(o goodness I must stop singing while typing this. The people at the cafe will stare at me and kick me out the internet shoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooppp.........

NOBELA

2006-02-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

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at uulitin sa muli
mamahalin kasambitib
kahit muli masaktan
sa pag-alis
ako'y magbabalik
sana naman

AND SO THE YEAR OF THE DOG

2006-02-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

starts with not just one, but two calamities for the Philippines(yuck, I could imagine Vilma Santos chiming, "not just one, but TWO glasses..." with her V-sign). I pray the souls of those buried n feet under.

One cannot help but wonder if the year of the Dog is more of a harbinger of wilder statistics than the year of the Rooster. I hope not for me. After all, I am a (non-)example of regression to the mean. :D

ME AND THE GREATER-KNOWN SAM

2006-02-19T20:02:00.000+08:00

Now I was walking just this afternoon on my way to buy some Papemelroti notebooks. I am now about to start the 29th. Whew.

Now I WAS walking on my way to buy some Papemelroti notebooks. Naturally in an outfit like mine (a plain T-shirt, a pair of jeans, and a pair of slippers, not to mention nerdy-looking eyeglasses) one cannot help but sashay through the people. There was the guard who manhandled my rear humps (music please: MAH HUMPS, MAH HUMPS, MAH HUMPS, MAH HUMPS, MAH HUMPS...), the shops that for a Sunday were filled to less than their capacity because of the fiscal crisis, and then the people....

The people! There was this familiar music, and the people on the upper ground floor were all around the fence that kept people from falling into the Foodcourt. They stared at something on the lower ground floor.

Humans are by nature curious, and I, being a highly-developed primate myself, looked at the center stage in the middle of the people partaking their merienda.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! There was a creature with the most beautiful first name in the world! And he was signing autographs of crazed fans: proletariat girls, the more proletariat gays, and *gasp!* non-proletariat gerontology specimens!

The strains of the song "Only You" filled that part of the mall. For the third time in my life I was starstruck(the first was with Inday Badiday, bless her soul; the second one was with 98 degrees, although now I wonder why I got starstruck in the first place). I never got to see that PBB housemate in the flesh,and he was my favorite housemate!

Oooooo.... let me off for a while... commercialism is taking its toll on me. Must get his album.... must get his album....

THE UJP-UP ELECTIONS

2006-02-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

And so, the nomination of the officers of the UJP-UP is almost done. I second the nomination by Ate Maya of Gladdys to the post of Information and Propaganda officer. You never know, but I got infected by Gladdys's (dirty... white, heehee) thinking, which manifested in the applicants's orientation last November. The tarpaulin had to be mounted temporarily to the board. I volunteered, and so did Jam. I held the tarp, but the letter 'O' of the word 'Orientation' fell because of weak adhesion, and I remarked to Jam who picked up the fallen letter, "AY! NALAGLAG ANG TITIK 'O'!"

Gladdys has the brains of a psychopath who can churn out catchy and striking and flavorfully arresting publicity materials, and I believe she has the leadership for it. Oh come on now, Glads, no need to downsize yourself with humility. You aren't capable of such a virtue, heehee.

But seriously, I recommend you take a shot at it. I'll be rooting for you, the bestest best buddy in the whole wide world. :D At syemps, iboboto kita! ^_^ Ikaw pa!

On the other side, Rachel nominated me for Educ Com head. I wonder what goes on in the Yakisoba noodles of Rachel's head, but I'm CLEARLY not cut out for the task of Educ Com head. Gee, I can't spin out all those 'burgis' things like silkworms fed mulberry. I can just allow some tricklings, but no more. And besides, I think Marlon (nominated by Kuya Frank) is better suited. Me? I second the nomination of Rachel even before she nominated me. I don't think I can handle her type of sociology (even though I feel it is needed by the union). It would be complicated if I showed my true political colors. :D

GLADDYS AND WOWOWEE

2006-02-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

(Disclaimer: The two nouns mentioned in the title of this post do not occur in the same sentence together. I just had to write both of them though because it sounds nice. This is in no way an exponderance of the fact that Gladdys looks like a death goddess, and probably IS one. Heehee. Bati tayo, ha? :D)

And it took some tagging by buddy Gladdys to make me realize that, golly gee, I haven't been updating at all. I'm very sorry, Gladdys. I know you patronize my (often errant) writing. How can I not LUUUUURVE your enthusiasm?

Anyway, I modified the theme song of Wowowee a bit...

Wowowee, sino'ng 'di masasawi,
Dahil sa game na 'to sigurado ang muerte,
Wowowee, namamatay ang marami,
Pagkat walang buhay sa Wowowee...

Just my twisted side speaking. Please bear with my insanity.

But seriously, how can I blame these proletariats? I am one of them, for goodness's sake! Of course it is a mirror of the economic situation of the country. I say it because I am observing it for some time now, but oh my goodness, the Wowowee incident is no more than just an accident! How can they blame the President and the Lopezes for that? (The irrational side of me tells me to DO blame them, though; it is all too tempting.)

SOME PHOTOS FROM THE UPTK BUDDY WEEK

2006-01-25T11:52:00.000+08:00

Me before the fishball-eating contest (and thank goodness there was no one around when I barfed, haha).

Me and Tin-tin-sempai (my buddy) with the guard at Quezon Hall.

The Yaoi Family Megane: Si Nanay, ako, at si Koneko-chan. ^_^

During the (H)Alay kay Buddy.
Nanay: Ano ba yan anlalaki naman n'yan!

Us before the fishball orgy. :D

Oh, fresh water! T_T (Taken during the buddy Race)

HEE HEE HEE

2006-01-25T11:03:00.000+08:00

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Masakatsu Kakuta!

The only Englishman to become Masakatsu Kakuta was Nicholas Breakspear, who was Masakatsu Kakuta from 1154 to 1159.
The word 'samba' means 'to rub Masakatsu Kakuta'.
There are more than two hundred different kinds of Masakatsu Kakuta.
Masakatsu Kakuta is often used in place of milk in food photography, because milk goes soggy more quickly than Masakatsu Kakuta.
Masakatsu Kakuta has a bifurcated penis!
In Chinese, the sound 'Masakatsu Kakuta' means 'bite the wax tadpole'!
Masakatsu Kakuta kept at the window will keep vampires at bay.
Forty percent of the world's almonds and twenty percent of the world's peanuts are used in the manufacture of Masakatsu Kakuta.
The horns of Masakatsu Kakuta are made entirely from hair.
US gold coins used to say 'In Masakatsu Kakuta we trust'.

OI OKAMA PAT!

2006-01-25T10:44:00.000+08:00

Eto ang isang...

HAPPY HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY sa iyo! ^_^

From your luuuurrrrrving tomodachi,
SAM ^_^(oi pasalubong ko ha!)

AM STILL DOING J102 RESEARCH

2006-01-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

Imagine having to do some boring research about Bob Woodward and Carl Bernstein of the Washington Post notoriety. The result: chatting with someone else, blog-hopping, mail checking, blog updating, anything virtual other than do research.

Am now seriously starting to doubt the program I entered early last year. Ma'am Simbulan really will squeeze the definite answer out of you to the question, "Do you really consider Journalism as your career someday?"

Am out. Will discipline myself further. Maybe until I can shift to... :D

THIS IS VERY BELATED, BUT...

2006-01-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to YOU, the one who makes me think, "hey, maybe my life stinks less than yours does" every morning when I wake up. I just saw you today, and goodness, you don't look a bit older than nineteen. :D Once again, happy birthday to you, my disparaged canary. ;D

DANA!

2006-01-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

Heehee. I just visited Ate Maya's blog today (see links section for info on her site address) and i just scrolled through it, the posts and the tagboard. I suddenly saw this tag from Dana that said, "Merry Christmas!"

Dana, daaaaahling, big news: Ate Maya is a Muslim. :D Just a thought.

FEEL SO (SOMEWHAT) TIRED

2006-01-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

Have no funds as of the moment, so will make this terse:

Am still doubting whether to continue with the MCO application or not. Malaki kase akong pabigat sa mga batchmates ko e.

Am going back to choir practice. Not for the English worship service, though. Dinudugo ako sa English. Wehe.

Am still waiting for some material grace to fall from the sky right now. Am doubtful it will come from the sky, though.

Am investigating the history of the Indonesian press because Angel, Royce, and I will report it in J 100 a few weeks from now. Apparently this Soeharto guy is a major roadblock to Indonesian press freedom.

Am still waiting for the REAL Year of the Dog, to start on February.

Am changing the mail options of my Yahoo! E-groups from separate e-mails to just an e-mail per day.

Am starting to drink tea WITHOUT the sugar. Am removing the dependence on added sugar altogether.

Am starting, however, to have increased dependence on Pancit Canton as ssubsistence (and budget) food. Quick Chow Hot and Spicy still is hottest, but noodles sog, so prefer Payless.

Am starting to do a recap of what I have recorded the past year in my notebooks. Will have formulated the year-end special entry a week from now.

Am thoroughly enjoying the TK application process, though am still uncomfortable with some of the members. Am confident will get over with it in a week or so. My batchmates are fun. Lalo na ikaw Regina Tan! Yaoi kang talaga! :D

Till here for now. If further will lose funds. ^_^~sam

SOMETHING I GOT FROM FRIENDSTER

2006-01-14T14:54:00.000+08:00

Now is your lucky day! Here's something I got from a Friendster bulletin post, and this is your chance to know THE THINGS YOU WANTED TO KNOW ABOUT SAM BUT WERE AFRAID TO ASK. I will answer them.... 98% truthfully. Hehehe... Fill up this form and send to 9.potions.apothecary@gmail.com ^_^sure hope you do!

__________________________________
YOU CAN ASK ME SiX QUESTiONS:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
__________________________________
No matter how random, revealing, rude, or
pointless. Just ask.
All questions should be COMPLETELY confidential - send
to my inbox.
__________________________________
[[[Repost this to see what others ask you...]]]
__________________________________
IF YOU DONT THEN YOU'RE SCARED OF WHAT
PEOPLE MAY ASK. :P

AH HUA PAT RIMANDO, THESE ARE THE DETAILS

2006-01-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

Ganito kase 'yun... Hindi kase ako masyadong nakakadaan sa tambayan ng TK nung mga unang linggo, kaya doubtful yung MemTrio (Si Zane-sempai, si Jayvee-sempai, at isa pang sempai na kailangan ko pang kilalanin.) kung mag-aaply pa ako o hindi. Hindi ako nakadaan masyado noon kase nag-aaply rin ako sa isa pang org. Ngayon nung (finally) dumaan na ako, tinanong ako ni Zane-sempai kung gusto ko pang magpatuloy. Sabi ko oo, kaya ibinigay sa akin si Tintin-sempai.

Enjoy ako! ^_^

IF THIS WORLD BEHAVED LIKE KOREANOVELAS

2006-01-10T18:05:00.000+08:00

I would rather choose to court someone from a rich family. There are only two options here: the parents like you or not, the latter being more probable. If they like you, you get absorbed into their rich family, and when her parents die, you inherit them. Wahahahahaha....

The second more probable possibility is that they don't like you. After all, aren't rich people paranoid when it comes to their wealthy wealth? *wink* They set up a rendez-vous with you at a fancy restaurant, then after some niceties, give you a cheque blanc. They tell you to write any amount you fancy just to leave their daughter (and consequently their wealthy wealth). You write seven-digit figures, and POOF! You become nouveau-riche Koko Krunch. *Wow, that's great, Koko!*

But that is just what I'd do IF this world DID behave as Koreanovelas do. Hehe...

SOME ORG-JOINING UPDATES

2006-01-10T17:54:00.000+08:00

UP MCO: Have already made my sigsheet last night. Have lost precious sleep-hours last night. Slept at 2 in the morning. But was okay since have no classes today. Am still thinking of quitting the application process, nevertheless. I just don't tell them. I have promised myself not to join anymore orgs that have swimming pools in their application processes. Have already had the experience of a lifetime with UJP, and because of its application process have acquired hydrophobia. Brrr.

UP TOMO-KAI: Have also made my sigsheet last night. :D Wonderful how one can really do nice things if one only puts his heart into it. I made my best sigsheet so far.

Am happy. Zane-senpai already gave me a buddy. Tintin-senpai! Mga Yaoi fanatics tayo next week, ha? ^_^Am so happy!

Now to be a masochist and do some Kas 1 papers and an Econ 100.1 Exercise set... Bye for now! ^_^

TULOG NA

2006-01-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

SUGARFREE
Tulog na mahal ko
hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito
lika na, tulog na tayo

Tulog na mahal ko
wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama
saka na mamroblema

[chorus]
Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
kung matulog, matulog ka na

Tulog na mahal ko
nandito lang akong bahala sa iyo
sige na, tulog na muna

Tulog na, mahal ko
at baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas
at sabay nating harapin ang mundo

[chorus]
Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
kung matulog, matulog ka na

[adlib]

[chorus]
Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila
mamaya, hindi ka na nila kaya pang saktan
kung matulog, matulog ka na

________________________________________

Iniaalay ko ang kantang ito sa nag-iisang tao dito sa sangkaUPhan na nagpasaya sa aking puso ng di iilang beses. Halos araw-araw kong iniisip kung papaanong sa likod ng kanyang maamong mukha ay may itinatago siyang matinding angst. Pero maaaring nakikisakay lang din siya sa uso; hindi ko siya gaanong kilala, gaya ng pagkakakilala niya sa akin. Sa iyo, Ka ____________, iniaalay ko ang kantang ito. -_-zzz...

208.12.1.255

2006-01-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

It is only now that I ave realized (after some bit of thinking) that ohhmygoodness I MISS MY NETWORKING.

In my third and fourth year in that cursed high school I went to (oi, 'kala n'yo lang angas kapag nanggaling ka doon; kung alam n'yo lang ang kahihiyang pinagdadaanan ko du'n, no?), my computer science section was networking, sponsored by Cisco systems. (The others were Java programming in third year, and advanced programming in fourth year.) I missed those times I was working on the cables and servers and routers and PCs and what-have-yous. I missed those times when Ma'am Capundag and Ma'am Mendoza and Sir (kawalang)Pitagan were not looking, and I'd try to surf anipike.com and other (possibly scandalous) websites. Wahaha.

But seriously, I miss networking...

RESOLUTIONS 2006

2006-01-02T11:09:00.000+08:00

This year I resolve to make my first attempt at coughing up a New Year's resolution. This will be my first time. This is painful, but please bear with it.

01. Will save more dough. There are two things on my mind right now that I'd very much like to purchase: a cellphone with a radio and Playstation 2. Now that I mentioned PS2, am also thinking of purchasing Final Fantasy 10, 10-2, and 12. ^_^

02. Will eat less. This is gonna be painful. Where ARE those support groups when you need them?

03. Will lose weight. This one is much easier than #2, but at is still painful to get that fat ass offa the bed and work out every morning.

04. Will wake up early. Am already getting late for J100 everytime. But then again, so does Ma'am Katigbak.

05. Will join more orgs. Haha.

06. Will become more active in UJP-UP. I guess the nuance that the first org you voluntarily joined is the one you love most is true. :D

07. Will have better grades. -_-u

Here for now. Okay, so I wager that only several of these resolutions will materialize, but am still happy if only one of these will.

END OF TRANSMISSION

A CEREBRAL POST IN A LONG TIME

2005-12-12T10:06:00.000+08:00

Okay! After a hiatus of something cerebral (I had to just post anything that came my Friendster way), I now am here with something philosophical on my mind. I am back!

Though the money isn't (and sad since it is a prerequisite for distilled thoughts), I have decided to write AS IF I WROTE IN A JOURNAL. And so here.

The weekend was uneventful, with the exception of the discovery of the fact that THE 27th NOTEBOOK IS MISSING. Funny, but my main mode of writing is not E-based. It is through these Papemelroti notebooks that I vent out my feelings. Well, most of them. I spare the readers of my electronic journals the sad, the morose, and the ugly. It is a small step forward to discipline, and it works for me. No matter that I write mostly mushy things or depressed things or highly political and economic things. I just keep on writing everyday even if the content is trash because that is one way to go about the habit and practice of writing.

I started the journals in my fourth year of high school, back when Papa was just four months six feet under. To relieve myself of depression, I started buying some Papemelroti notebooks at the SM North with the stipends I got from the government. It pays to be a science scholar. Wahaha. :P

Come to think of it, that was the time I got addicted to malling. Haha. Four years in Pisay and only in my fourth year did I get used to the idea of walking around SM North. And to think it was only walking distance from the school. :D

Now I am filling up my 27th, I am just depressed that I misplaced it. Oh goodness...

Till here for now. ^_^Still have an Econ class to catch up! ~sam

ARTICLE STOLEN FROM RIA-SENSEI

2005-12-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

SAYAW NA WALANG MUSIKA

Strange ba? Medyo. Paano ka naman sasayaw nang hindi naririnig ang tugtog, o ang beat, o ang rhythm?

Kagabi, may naabutan akong maigsing feature tungkol sa mga deaf/mute dancers sa China. At ako ay na-amaze. Tumayo ang mga balahibo ko habang pinapanood sila. Sa TV pa lang yan.

Imagine, hindi nila kailangang marinig ang music para sumabay dito.

Naalala ko tuloy yung description sa isang sayaw sa Kontra-Gapi. "sayaw na naririnig at musikang nakikita".

Nararamdaman nila ito. Yung pulso ng rhythm. Halimbawa, lumalapit sila speaker para maramdaman yung beat. Para madali nilang sabayan.

Yung pinakita nilang performace kahapon ay tungkol sa Thousand-hand Bodhisattva.

Ang galing-galing talaga. Napaka-inspiring.

Sana makapanood ako ng show nila, Live.

SOMETHING TO SMILE ABOUT

2005-12-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga mumunti
ngunit ginintuang butil ng payo na nakuha ko sa
aking mga magulang:

1. Si Inay, tinuruan niya ako HOW TO
APPRECIATE A
JOB WELL DONE.Crazy "Kung kayong dalawa ay
magpapatayan, doon kayo sa labas! Mga leche
kayo,
kalilinis ko lang ng bahay."

2. Natuto ako ng RELIGION kay Itay. "Kapag yang
mantsa di natanggal sa carpet, magdasal ka na!"

3.Kay Inay ako natuto ng LOGIC. "Kaya ganyan,
dahil sinabi ko."

4. At kay Inay pa rin ako natuto MORE LOGIC.
"Kapag ikaw ay nalaglag diyan sa bubong, ako lang
magisa ang manonood ng sine."

5. Si Inay din ang nagturo sa akin kung ano ang
ibig sabihi ng IRONY. "Sige ngumalngal ka pa at
bibigyan talaga kita ng iiyakan mo!"

6. Si Inay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung ano ang
CONTORTIONISM. "Tingnan mo nga yang dumi sa
likod
ng leeg mo, tignan mo!!!"

7. Si Itay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung anong
ibig sabihin ng STAMINA. "Wag kang tatayo diyan
hangga't di mo natatapos yang lahat ng pagkain
mo!"

8. At si Inay ang nagturo sa a! min kung ano ang
WEATHER. "Lintek talaga kayo, ano ba itong
kuwarto
nyong magkapatid, parang dinaanan ng bagyo!"

9. Ganito ang paliwanag sa akin ni Inay tungkol sa
CIRCLE OF LIFE: "Malandi kang bata ka, iniluwal
kita sa mundong ito, maari rin kitang alisin sa
mundong ito."

10. Kay Itay ako natuto kung ano ang BEHAVIOR
MODIFICATION. "Tumigil ka nga diyan! Huwag
kang
mag-inarte na parang Nanay mo!"

11. Si Inay naman ang nagturo kung anong ibig
sabihin ng GENETICS. "Nagmana ka ngang talaga
sa
ama mong walanghiya!"

12. Si Inay naman ang nagpaliwanag sa amin kung
anong ibig sabihin ng ENVY. "Maraming mga
batang
ulila sa magulang, di ba kayo nagpapasalamat at
mayroon kayong magulang na tulad namin?"

13. Si Itay naman ang nagturo sa akin ng
ANTICIPATION. "Sige kang bata ka, hintayin mong
makarating tayo sa bahay!"

14. At si Itay pa rin ang nagturo kay Kuya kung
anong ibig sabihin ng RECEIVING. "Uupakan kita
pagdating natin sa bahay!"

15. Si Inay naman ang nagturo sa akin kung ano
ang
HUMOR. "Kapag naputol yang mga paa mo ng
pinaglalaruan mong lawnmower, wag na wag kang
tatakbo sa akin at lulumpuhin kita!"

16. At ang pinakamahalaga sa lahat, natutunan ko
kina Inay at Itay kung ano ang JUSTICE. "! Isang
araw magkakaroon ka rin ng anak,tiyak maging
katulad mo at magiging pasakit din sa ulo!"

:D

A LITTLE BIT OF MADNESS

2005-12-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

And a little bit of madness it will be. I am now applying for membership in two orgs right now: UP Tomo-kai and UP MCO.

I don't know if I can't still hold on to application process for the UP MCO. I submitted a so-so autobio, and I heard from m buddy there that they graded me low. Of all the blows people can deal me, the one that hits my self esteem will get through my defenses. Dammit, I withstood the UJP application process JUST BECAUSE THEY CHOSE NOT TO STRIKE ME WHERE IT HURTS. And now I don't know whether to continue. Just because I am NOT creative, NOT industrious, and NOT one to withstand pain. Haha. So why did I join orgs anyway?

I myself do not know.

As for UP Tomo-kai, things have not yet heated up. I still am lax about things, but at least I've tried to memorize the Jikoshoukai (Self-Introduction). Now I am preparing for Christmas party tomorrow. ^_^

Oh well...

JIKOSHOUKAI

2005-12-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hajimemashite.
Watashi wa Kakuta Masakatsu desu.
Senko wa BA Journalism desu.
JuuKu sai desu.
(oh my goodness i forgot...)...Onegaishimasu.

DISPARAGIA 2

2005-11-30T20:18:00.000+08:00

And I never knew I could feel this way until now.

I just felt it so suddenly, and for the first time. And now I know when you feel this for the first time you tend to reel from the aftereffects.

Restlessness is what fills me right now.

I now know the feeling of quiet longing, that pain of wanting to see someone once again, but can't find the time to or the strength to tell. That pain of sudden madness that when it strikes you you feel helpless, powerless, anxious, bitter, and then...!

I know I have to let it out, somehow.

But how do I? Suddenly I have become a person who is tongue-tied. Suddenly I have become a person who is silent. Suddenly I have become a downtrodden person. Suddenly I...

I am not normally like this, but right now...

Words are impotent. How ironic, but right now words will only show how mediocre I get in sharp sudden moments of pain. And words that will not hurt me ruin all that I have left.

The irony.

AND STILL ANOTHER SURVEY...

2005-11-30T19:47:00.001+08:00

1. friends or boyfriend/girlfriend?
- friends

2. college or high school?
- college

3. angelina jolie or julia roberts?
-angelina jolie. she rawked in tomb raider. :D

4. brad pitt or tom cruise?
- no comment.

5. basketball or volleyball?
- volleyball

6. eastwood or malate?
- malate

7. redhorse or strong ice?
- yoko ng beer. hindi hiyang sa akin.

8. tequila or vodka?
- tequila

9. mcdo or jollibee?
- mcdo, although i seldom.

10. grudge or ring?
- ring

11. single or taken?
- single. pray for me.

12. go for younger or older? (bf/gf)
- younger po. but the closer the better.

13. j.lo or janet jackson?
- j lo.

14. rubbershoes or sandals?
- sandals.

15. lotr or harry potter?
- kung yung book HP. kung yung movie HP 3 tsaka lahat ng LOTR.

16. cellphone or computer?
- computer

17. globe or smart or sun?
- globe

18. Christmas vacation or summerbreak?
- xmas vacation. pag summer nasa UP pa rin ako eh.

19. brains or goodlooks?
- brains

20. have you watched return of the king?
- a bit.

21. when?
- can't remember

22. counterstrike or ragnarok?
- ragna. am not real-time player.

23. adventurous or romantic movie?
- romantic. (aw, shaddup, a voice in my head tells me.)

24. winston or marlboro?
- don't smoke

25. manila bulletin or inquirer or phil star?
- INQ

26. abs or gma?
- ABS

27. pillow w/o blnket or blnket w/o pillow?
- pillow w/o blanket... but don't make me choose.

28. girbaud or esprit?
- girbaud. omglumalabasnaangikalawakong pagkatao...

29. badminton or tabletennis?
- ala bang lawn tennis dito?

30. kisses or toblerone?
- kisses

31. math or science?
- science? i hate physics but love bio. as for math... so-so.

32. nokia or samsung?
- nokia. mahal samsung eh

35. bmw or mb?
- ala bang chevy dito?

36. mango or banana?
- mango. i see something freudian in this question...

37. malls or bars?
- malls...

38. y ru answern this?
- because THAT person answered this.

39. would you answer more surveys such as this?
- as long as THAT person answers surveys.

40. who do you think will read this?
- those who visit my blog... hopefully.

41. what's up?
- ewan.

42.bakit namimigay ng regalo si santa?
- hindi ko rin alam eh. mukha ba akong history major?

44.bkit malaki ang mata ng mga anime?
- frustration ng mga japs yun. pati na rin ako. i think they're fond of large eyes. they tend to see it as cute.

45. bakit tinawag na hello kitty si hello kitty?
- (coming from THAT person) kasi nagsimula si hello kitty as a pillow case
print. at first, her original name is good morning
kitty, but sanrio thought it was too long

46. bakit hindi na lang hi kitty?
- (again coming from THAT person) actually sanrio considered that, they just thought
hello kitty was better. besides, hi kitty sounded
dumb too
- (coming from me) actually it would sound more... freudian. that's it, freudian. hehe... :P

48. ano favorite mong color?
- red and blue

49. ano favorite mong tv show?
- naruto, at recently My 19-year-old sister-in-law sa GMA.

50. last question. ilan na ang naging cellphone
mo?
- isa.
- (coming from THAT person) yung sagot ko
sa question #'s 45 and 46 imbento ko lang, baka
isipin nyo i'm a big fan.

ANOTHER SURVEY TO PASS THE TIME

2005-11-30T19:27:00.000+08:00

1.Do you know anyone's friendster password?
** ala

2. Do you think your love life right now will last
long?
** have no love life, leave me alone

3. Are you an emo person?
** oh sure.

4. If you had one last breath to say something
to someone you love what would you say?
** haha wala kang mamamana mula sa akin haha ack ack cough cough

5. Do you believe in your boyfriend/gf?
** n/a

6. Ever felt so jealous of your friend?
** cnong friend?

7. What was the last thing you did?
** ate my dinner

8. Who is right next to you?
** di ko alam name nya

9. Who was the last person you ate with?
** my favorite auntie. sa bahay.

10. How many times has your page been
visited
** di ko ma-track eh.

11. How's the weather right now?
** a bit of a drizzle

12. Last person you called today?
** wala po.

13. Last person who called you?
** ala me phone.

14. Last song you sang?
** i can't remember. siguro yung hamtaro theme song.

15. Last time you danced?
** sa induction... whoohoo aira! :D

16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?
** i can lose most anything over something stupid, as long as i was taken by surprise.

17. drink?
** yeah.

18. Dumped someone off before?:
** ala ngang p(um)apatol sa akin eh

19. Been really depressed before?:
** not that much.

20. Faked being sick to miss school?:
** i succeeded once. but i don't feel like skipping school. (naks naman! hehe)

31 BORING THINGS ABOUT ME

2005-11-30T19:06:00.000+08:00

I had nothing to do, and it is rare when THAT person answers surveys, and so I answer the same survey.

1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
LEO

2. SiNGLE OR TaKen?
single

3. iN LoVe?
i AM.

4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERIOUSLY HURT
BY THE PERSON YOU LOVED?
THAT person can never hurt me the more.

5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU
TURNED SUICIDAL?
...i don't think anything can make me suicidal. I am a positive person, thank you very much.

6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
hello?

7. COUNTRY OR CLASSIC?
country

8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
THAT person is CUTE/idiot. but I am open to other types of people.

9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE
RELATiONSHiP WiTH
YOUR BF/GF?
not applicable.

10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE
USUALLY FROM:
ala pang cel.

11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE
OPPOSiTE GENDER?
hindi.

12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU'RE
DEPRESSED
eat comfort food.

13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
eh? depende kung sino.

14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE?
hindi ko alam eh.

15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS
WHY THE SKY iS BLUE?
i could go up to the Institute of Physics and ask them. Malapit lang naman sila sa Narra eh.

16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
if you could call this feeling for THAT person love then my cup is full.

17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME
MiSTAKE AGAiN?
depends on impulse.

18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HeLL?
i'm a nice person. or so I'd like to think.

19. WHAT WILL YOU DO WHEN A PERSON
BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
anlabo naman ng tanong this.

20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES
WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOw?
Anxious.

21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF? -
most of the time yes. ^_^

22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF??
accidentally. i remember once i sliced my finger chopping up carrots.

23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
no. i can never hurt myself verbally.

24. MOTTO iN LiFE:
Le coeur ses raisons que la raison ne connâit point. (The heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing of.)

25.WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE:
world domination, baby.

26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD FEELiNGS ABOUT A
FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
many times.

27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO?
none. i'd be too timid, you know.

28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT
THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?
fame least important. money... second most! hahaha

29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR
SOUNDS WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
i recite things in my sleep, such as enumerating and elaborating the three factors of production, etc. ...

30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP? -
yes.

31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP? 8 to 10 hours, even more if i feel lethargic.

AND SINCE I AM ANTI-BUSH ANYWAY...

2005-11-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

(Got this one from the UJP e-groups. Haha.)

Conversation between Condolezza Rice and George Bush...

(We take you now to the Oval Office.)

George: Condi! Nice to see you. What's happening?

Condi: Sir, I have the report here about the new leader of China.

George: Great. Lay it on me.

Condi: Hu is the new leader of China.

George: That's what I want to know.

Condi: That's what I'm telling you.

George: That's what I'm asking you. Who is the new leader of China?

Condi: Yes.

George: I mean the fellow's name.

Condi: Hu.

George: The guy in China.

Condi: Hu.

George: The new leader of China.

Condi: Hu.

George: The Chinaman!

Condi: Hu is leading China.

George: Now whaddya' asking me for?

Condi: I'm telling you Hu is leading China.

George: Well, I'm asking you. Who is leading China?

Condi: That's the man's name.

George: That's who's name?

Condi: Yes.

George: Will you or will you not tell me the name of the new leader of China?

Condi: Yes, sir.

George: Yassir? Yassir Arafat is in China? I thought he was in the Middle East.

Condi: That's correct.

George: Then who is in China?

Condi: Yes, sir.

George: Yassir is in China?

Condi: No, sir.

George: Then who is?

Condi: Yes, sir.

George: Yassir?

Condi: No, sir.

George: Look, Condi. I need to know the name of the new leader of China.

Get me the Secretary General of the U.N. on the phone.

Condi: Kofi?

George: No, thanks.

Condi: You want Kofi?

George: No.

Condi: You don't want Kofi.

George: No. But now that you mention it, I could use a glass of milk. And then get me the U.N.

Condi: Yes, sir.

George: Not Yassir! The guy at the U.N.

Condi: Kofi?

George: Milk! Will you please make the call?

Condi: And call who?

George: Who is the guy at the U.N?

Condi: Hu is the guy in China.

George: Will you stay out of China?!

Condi: Yes, sir.

George: And stay out of the Middle East! Just get me the guy at the U.N.

Condi: Kofi.

George: All right! With cream and two sugars. Now get on the phone.

(Condi picks up the phone.)

Condi: Rice, here.

George: Rice? Good idea. And a couple of egg rolls, too. Maybe we should send some to the guy in China. And the Middle East. Can you get Chinese food in the Middle East?

ROBBER, ROBBER

2005-11-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

A batch of recently printed hundred-peso bills made its way into the hands of the Filipino masses. The notes misspelled the President's name, so that it read "Gloria Macapagal-Arrovo".

Haha. Right on. At least for some comic relief resbak the people have waited only so long for something like this. A hundred-peso bill misspelled. Critics say it sounds like the Spanish root word for robber, "robo". And it sounds like the Japanese term for robber, "dorobo". Haha. Right on.

Reminds me of a joke one time in which Imelda was reportedly speaking to the Japanese public. In an effort to relate to the r-tounged audience, she said a very impassionate line, "I rove tha Firipino pipor! I rove tha Firipins!"

So much for robbers. So much for hearing Japanese.

E-LIFE REHASH

2005-11-23T19:31:00.000+08:00

And so I am rehashing my e-life. Mostly prepared my blog and Friendster profile in anticipation of the okrays from the UJP people. I suddenly didn't know what to do. I started inviting members of the org, and then suddenly I found myself trying to prettify my e-turf. Oh well. If you happen to be on Friendster while browsing at this, add me: vagrant_gospel@yahoo.co.jp

till here for now. until I have the time (and most importantly the money) to splurge, I'll be in a hiatus. ^_^sam

TO BUDDY GLADDYS 7

2005-11-18T15:03:00.000+08:00

Ay, buddy, sino naman yung nang-isnab sa iyo? Sabihin mo't gagawan natin ng solusyon 'yan. Hehehe. :D

100 THINGS RIP-OFF

2005-11-18T14:40:00.000+08:00

I have copied the questionnaire from Dana's Xanga blogsite, and it reminds me of the days I used to blog on Xanga. I miss those days... NOT. :P

100 THINGS....
1* First grade teacher's name: Dolores Lintag. How's THAT for memory? :D
2* Last word you said?: po.
3* Last song you sang: Wind by Akeboshi
4* Last person you hugged: Mom.
5* Last thing you laughed at: A Dose of Pain-Killer by Mark Twain.
6* Last time you said I don't remember: Minutes ago.
7* Last time you cried: At the sermon in church two weeks ago.

(DANA BAKIT WALANG 8?)

*PRESENTLY*
9* What color socks are you wearing: I wear only white socks. How's THAT for uninteresting?
10* What's under your bed: My shoes and some trash.
11* What time did you wake up today: 9:30 in the morning. I love the days of not hurrying.
12* Current taste: jologs.
13* Current hair: Unkempt, unminded, uncombed.
15* Current annoyance: The lack of Yahoo Messenger in the Math department. WIll take some time to be re-installed.

16* Current longing: CDs of Air Supply and Reo Speedwagon and The Carpenters and ABBA...
17* Current desktop background: At the SA's PC in the Math department, an iceberg view. I love their lonely feel.
18* Current worry: Where to obtain funding. My debts are piling up.
19* Current hate: The lack of funding.
20* Current favorite article of clothing: My underwear.
21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: The eyes.
22* Last CD that you listened to: A pirated CD of some really good tunes.
23* Favorite place to be: At home.
24* Least favorite place: At home.
25* Time you wake up in the morning: 6:00 in the morning.
26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: The church organ. No seriously. I play church music at times. And then I wish to play the guitar and the violin. ^_^
27* Favorite color: blue and red.
28* Do you believe in an afterlife: No.
29* How tall are you: 5 feet x inches, where x is a number between zero and eleven.
30* Current favorite word/saying: Oh goodness...
31* Favorite book: The Elements of Style by Will Strunk and E. B. White.
32* Favorite season: I HATE the rainy season.
33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: My father.

(DANA BAKIT WALANG 34?)

*FUTURE*
35* Where do you want to go for college?: I actually wanted to enter the College of Pharmacy in UP Manila. But no thanks, I'm here already.
36* What is your career going to be like: I'm going to be a weirdo and be rich at the same time.
37* How many kids do you want: Eight, with the latter four far apart.

(DANA BAKIT WALANG 38?)

*HAVE YOU EVER...*
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: This is a trick question, you know. Imagine combining two propositions in one sentence. I could be accused of impetus becuase of this.
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: No. The family cats and I are in felicitous spirits.

(For #s 41 to 46 the answer is a big resounding NO.)
41* Been to New York?:
42* Been to Florida:
43* Been to California:
44* Been to Paris:
45* Been to Australia:
46* Been to China:

(DANA BAKIT WALANG 47?)
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: My dreams are usually fantastic. They cannot happen in real life.

(DANA BAKIT WALANG 49 hanggang 51?)
*RANDOM*
52* Do you have a crush on someone: Why, yes.
53* What book are you reading now? The Interpretation of Dreams by Sigmund Freud.
54* Worst feeling in the world: Fear
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: Oh goodness what time is it already?
56* How many rings before you answer: Three at the least.
57* Future daughter's name: Naru, maybe. Or Rumiko perhaps?
58* Future son's name: I will name them (X)ro, where X is the order of birth.
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: All I have on my bed are sheets and a pillow.
60* If you could have any job you wanted what would it be?: World domination, baby...
61* Wish were here: THAT person.
62* College plans: I plan on taking up subjects that are not in the curriculum even if Sir Arao objects like crazed.
63* Piercings: None. I am needlephobic, you see.
64* Do you do drugs: 3,7-dihydro-1,3,7-trimethyl-1H-purine-2,6-dione works just fine. I have around three doses of this in a day, even more when I'm cramming.
65* Do you drink: Merlot and Cabernet Sauvignon. Have to try Shiraz yet.
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Rejoice Rich, the bless'd brand that is most sympathetic with me.
68* What are you most scared of: Public Humiliation.
69* What clothes do you sleep in: The clothes that I used for the day. I ususally come home to Narra tired enough to fall dead asleep on my bed.
70* Who is the last person that called you: I have no CP at the moment.
71* Where do you want to get married: I'm a traditionalist, thank you very much.
72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: My aura of dismality. Goodness it turns people off!
73* Who do you really hate: I'd rather keep them to myself, thank you very much.
74* Been In Love: Never actually. I consider myself as falling in love when I am able to sacrifice something. As of now I haven't given anything yet. But I am infatuated, yes.
75* Are you timely or always late: Always late, but that is about to change.
76* Do you have a job: As a student assistant in the Math department.
77* Do you like being around people: Generally no. But I have to socialize, and when I do, I tell myself, "Just enjoy it." I believe in living in the moment.
78* Best feeling in the world: A chocolate high.
79* Are you for world peace: No. I'm for world domination, baby.
80* Are you a health freak: Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda, but No.

81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: Quiet types. The types you don't think will one day suddenly burst into a psycho fit.
82* Do you want someone you don't have?: Have always wanted, only the people change. (Music in the background: ....saaaaana, kapalaran ko ay magbagooooohhh...
83* Are you lonely right now: Nah. I have my studies to keep me from thinking I'm lonely. And even if there were no studies the Playstation is a valid alternative.
84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: Nah. I believe in spoiling nephews and nieces anyway.
85* Do you want to get married: Course I do.
86* Do you want kids?: Hey, is this a filler question?

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU*
87* Cried: No
88* Bought Something: Yes. Food.
89* Gotten Sick: No
90* Sang: Yah.
91* Said I Love You: No.
92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: Yes.
93* Met Someone: yes.
94* Moved On: Yes
95* Talked To Someone: Yes.
96* Had A Serious Talk: Yes. About money and my ohgoodnessnotsopretty spendthrift habits.
97* Missed Someone: Yes
98* Hugged Someone: No.
99* Yelled at Someone: Yes
100* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: . . . why does it have to be like this?

GALING KAY ATE MARIEL...

2005-11-17T16:02:00.000+08:00

1. ARE YOU OVER 18?
-=- yes

2. WHAT DID YOU DO BEFORE OPENING
DIS
POSTED- BULLETIN?
-=- replied to the invitation to join the Journ 102 MWX Yahoo e-groups

3. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST
NIGHT?
-=- no.

4. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT
THIS
MORNING WHEN YOU WOKE UP?
-=- ay shet, ano'ng oras na?

5. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR
BEDSIDE?
-=- My copies of The Asian Wall Street Journal. They're a new addiction...

6. EVER TRIED TO SKIP MEALS?
-=- if ever I do it's because I'm not hungry.

7. GRILLED OR FRIED?
-=- fried. ooooh....

8.WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE ?
-=- i actually don't know. if someone can tell me i'd appreciate it very much, you know...

9. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
-=- sometimes.

10. FAVORITE HANGOUT?
-=- the UJP tambayan, the math department. the latter has internet access kase, eh...

11. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
-=- my journals, a pilot ballpen, and... playstation. :D

12. FIRST THING YOU WILL DO IF GIVEN
1 THOUSAND DOLLARS?
-=- i-pod na ito!

13. FAVORITE SONGS WHEN YOU'RE
SLEEPY?
-=- jazz. motown na rin siguro...

14.WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
-=- hell and high water.

15. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
-=- taker.

16. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
-=- sam, li to the UPCB bros.

17. IF YOU WERE INVISIBLE FOR A DAY,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
-=- i'd first go to the college of social sciences and philosophy and give arnica cadorna a good thrashing. the same for lourdes 'bulldog' portus. then my math 53 instructor michael gutierrez, then, then, then...

18. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND &
COULD HAVE ONLY ONE KIND OF FOOD FOR THE
REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT
BE?
-=- yang chow fried rice. ahem...

19. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
-=- the ads of the 19th Philippine Ad Congress.

20.IF YOU'LL DIE TOMORROW, WHAT
WILL YOU DO?
-=- ditto ate mariel: I'll act as if i'll die tomorrow, of course.

21. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
-=- my journals.

22. YOUR EYE COLOR?
-=- black

23. WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS
BRING?
-=- my good morning towel. and a bottle of hydration.

24. WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN
YOU
WERE A KID?
-=- goodness. i don't think i had a dream when i was a kid other than to be rich. wahahahaha....

25.WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN
THE
CLOCK STRIKES 7 AM?
-=- i'm usually at my J 100 class in M 209 by then.

26. THE COLOR OF YOUR BAG?
-=- green

27. WHO DO U WANT TO MEET?
-=- someone who can make me rich.

28. HOW'S LIFE TODAY?
-=- masaya naman....ok lng...^_^

KATT AND THE UNEXPECTED

2005-11-15T10:32:00.000+08:00

Katt, the one person in UJP-UP that I managed to murder the respective full name, the one who lashed out tongues of fury at not having heard the final 'a' sound, the one person I never thought would have the same twisted musicology as mine.

Wha? Goodness I thought before she was a year older than me, but now I know better than to use the appellate 'ate/kuya' as indiscriminately as I would toss out party favors. The UJP members before our batch got inducted are third years and above, with the exception of Jam. Now Jam is no longer the youngest. Now Katt (and ev'ryone else for that matter) is a legal 'nakatatanda'. Though not for me, they are not.

Hmmmm.... But let me get to something. I really AM a fan of 80s music. I got introduced to it by the local FM radio stations, and the musings of the then juvenile Jessica Zafra (she once LOVED Reo, and sang of its praises, but that was when she was in high school). And now it intensified with the technology and piracy I could only wish for. Haha. I listen occasionally to Police and Sting. ^_^Though a tight wallet only allows me tight access to their songs. I hope to add some more of their songs to my collection if I get to handle a (large) sum of money. I'm currently looking for (of course pirated) CDs of Reo Speedwagon, and Air Supply too. If you can find one, tell me! :D

Here for now! ^.-

Pahabol: Tinanggal ko na ang ate. Ate ka na nga, pero hindi relative sa akin. Heh.

FIRST DAY OF CLASSES, 2ND SEM AY '05-'06

2005-11-09T17:35:00.000+08:00

Listening To: The Essential Reo

Okay. I learned something new today, though there's something nagging at me that it was already a cliché. The new thing can be summed up in a line from the song "Life Goes On" by Leann Rimes: Shame on you if you fool me once, shame on me if you fool me twice...

I got up early Tuesday to strike the final straightening blow to my already awry schedule. I went to the College of The Gathering (aka MassComm) after a meal at the Papercup in SC. I remember Papercup was the place where we had lunch just before the induction. (Hi Batch Alitaptap! ^_^)

The House of Letters (aka the Journ department) was still closed. Ohdearsweetlordwhyisateraquelnothereasofthismoment? I had to keep my composure intact. I waited. And waited. And waited. Until Ate Raquel came, and Hallelujah!

The Form 5As had not yet arrived, she said. Typical, I thought, for nothing is ever early in this bureaucracy. So I waited some more. It was a good thing the department's airconditioning units were already on, and compared to the helter-swelter of the corridor, this was far more comfy.

Then Ate Raquel told me the bad news: I failed to keep up with the retention policy of the Journalism program, and therefore had to be put under probation. Ohdearsweetlordwhydoesladylambinodothistojournmajorssuchasme? I could only be so anxious. I kept asking Ate Raquel whowhatwhenwherewhyhow I could find salvation. She said no problem, if I get my Journ grades's average above 2.25 I would get my ass offa tha probation. Though I would have to face the Orc Lord (aka College Secretary Lourdes Portus) two times this enrollment period. Oh no, no.

I had no choice. I had to wait in line for my turn, missing a slot in five of the remaining Comm 140 slots of the class of Alfonso Deza. Sigh...

(details of the gruesome Orc Lord encounter omitted due to censure by the higher being within Sam)

And I had the Form 5A already. There was Eka, and then there were Sir Arao, and Sir Teodoro. Eka told me to go with Sir Arao. I entered his cubicle. I showed him my probation form. And then I asked for pre-advice.

"Okay, ba't nagkaganito ang Journ 101 mo?"

"Um, dahil po sa l----------"

"Ano?"

"Dahil po sa meron akong di naipasa..."

"At ano naman yun?"

"Yung layout assignment po."

"At bakit hindi mo naman naipasa? Palagi ka bang absent?"

"Um, hindi po ako nakapasok nung in-announce yan."

"At wala kang ginawa para malaman yun?"

Felt spineless. "Wala po."

"Okay, so eighteen units ka lang ngayon."

I was crestfallen. And who would not? If one was hoping to take 21 units one would bear the weight of the earth upon his shoulders upon hearing such a verdict. Oh well, better not complain. There's still summer...

I then enlisted in Comm 140, and waited for the next day for PI 100 enlistment.

Okay, so here is my schedule for this sem, all 18 units of it:

Mundae
07:00a - 08:30a J 100
08:30a - 10:00a Break
10:00a - 11:00a Econ 100.1
11:00a - 11:30a Break
11:30a - 01:00p Kas 1
01:00p - 04:00p J 102
04:00p - 05:30p Break
05:30p - 07:00p PI 100

Winsdae
01:00p - 04:00p Comm 140

Thersdae
07:00a - 08:30a J 100
08:30a - 10:00a Break
10:00a - 11:00a Econ 100.1
11:00a - 11:30a Break
11:30a - 01:00p Kas 1
01:00p - 02:00p Econ 100.1
02:00p - 05:30p Break
05:30p - 07:00p PI 100

Ain't that nice? ^_^

Till here for now! ^_^~sam

NOVEMBER 7

2005-11-07T17:23:00.000+08:00

So how was November 7 for me? It was dull, dreary, and... oh never mind.

The main point of this worthless post is that one can pick a random day, and it will be dull and dreary. Period. ^_^~sam

Postscript: Bundle up, people. December is near. It would be nicer if you had someone to cuddle. :D

ÇENÇAÇÃO PHOBIS

2005-10-29T15:03:00.000+08:00

Never mind. I just don't know what the hell Ma'am Almond Pilar Aguila is thinking. You can never read her mind correctly. Imagine her giving me a passing grade in Comm 100, when I thought I had abandoned all hope of ever passing because I didn't do a thing. Now that gives me a good reason to freak out and quickly change my schedule to enlist in Comm 140. Oh goodness. I fear having Victor freaking Avecilla as my Comm 120 prof. Maybe I shouldn't take Comm 120. On the other hand, maybe I should enlist in Ma'am Lambino's class. For more nice things. :D

I have a lot to tell. But funds are limited right now as I am in an internet cafe near home and it is near to an hour already. Oh how I miss the internet at the Math department...

But anyways, here's my (unlucky) schedule. I will have to change the Comm 100 into Comm 140. For Journ people who are my batchmates, tell me if you already are enlisted in a so-and-so class of Comm 140, okay?

The table below represents your current schedule.

	Mon	Wed	Thu	Fri
7:00 - 8:30	J 100 MHQ [M 209]		J 100 MHQ [M 209]
8:30 - 10:00				Comm 100 FRU [M 213]
10:00 - 11:00	Econ 100.1 HI1		Econ 100.1 HI1
11:00 - 11:30
11:30 - 1:00	Kas 1 MHV1 [PH 214]		Kas 1 MHV1 [PH 214]
1:00 - 2:00		J 102 WWX [M 203]	Econ 100.1 HI1 [SE 123]
2:00 - 4:00		J 102 WWX [M 203]

That's all for now. ^_^See you November 8! ^_^

OH THEM CRS PEOPLE HAVE REALLY MADE ME MAAAAAAAAAD...

2005-10-16T11:40:00.000+08:00

Now they have incurred the wrath of the ferocious Demigod of War Sam, and they will pay for this DEARLY. They will taste the power of my father Zeus's special Lightningbolts, which will damage the whole Computer Center, and which will burn the National Engineering Center to a crunchy crisp. That they will see, them CRS imps. Oooooh, if only I knew Java and was more proficient in C...